Saturday, April 27, 2013

Saturn Retro 2013, 55- Time after time



We are now in Day 2 of 7 days of 100%/ MAX Saturn Retro velocity of 2013. Even though otherwise, we have crossed the Ultra Rajasic Basant Navaratra Chaitra Poornima PLUS Lunar eclipse at 1am midnight, STILL due to Saturn Retro Velocity being at 100% Max, still no discernible relief! Solar/ Rajasic/ Shakti ruled people can still make the most of the 7 days of Max Saturn Retro velocity, 25th April- 1st May. Of 100%  Max, Saturn Retro velocity.

Today I feel, In-Between, stuck somewhere between the living and the dead. Like a burnt out zombie. No brake, no accelerator. Just stuck in between.. heaven and hell. Like Trishanku. (Google his story). Somewhere, badly stuck. But not yet, out of the desert. Why was I expecting, immediate relief after fall from 100%  Rajasic Poornima, yesternight, 25th April. What about the eclipse, on the same day?
Anyways, today whole day has been a zombified day. Calcified. I was checking journal from Retro 2012, previous year. I had begun celebrating, from 100 % Max Retro Saturn velocity itself. From Friday the 13th , April ’12, itself. Couldn’t wait. Forgot all about Saturn Retro. It was Bihu time in Assam, so suddenly full on! After such detailed journals, notes unto the last minute, of detailed journal entry and comparison with previous retro years, everything, STILL FORGOT!! Wherein, came such a incredible loss of consciousness? ESPECIALLY, on the well plotted, well chronicled days of 100 % Max Retro!!  A price which I have had to pay, till date!! E$xpensive mistakes!! The dollar sign “$” got accidentally typed into the word “expensive”. Remembering the words of animation flick, Kung Fu Panda: “...There are no accidents...”! I’m finally, now, drained out, at the fag end of this journey, this long Saturn Retrograde odyssey, of unraveling, un-becoming, coming undone,  of past almost three months. With a sore taste in my mouth, today, on day 2, of 7 days of 100% Max! Today, few “random events”, stray comments here and there, have caused me great grief inside my heart. But I guess, there is NO ‘random events’ during Saturn Retro, especially the GRID-lock of 100% Max, Saturn Retro. We Have to brace our hearts and steel our nerves. And, LET GO, on a great magnitude. Surrender to the extreme and acute Gravitas!! Instead of dancing like an utter fool, moronic idiot, going berserk, wildly, and incomprehensively, celebrating spasmodically at the Peak of 100% Max Saturn Retro. Where, there should have been solemn gravitas befitting of a funeral, and I should have been, bitter, heavy, solemn, I was instead, incomprehensibly in release, in exuberance, exaltation, and spasms of brief ecstasy. Couldn’t I have waited few days more? Until Falling Retro began??

Last few days I had been busy with dad-in- laws’ cystoscopy procedure at Medicity. A follow up routine check. And today, we dropped him off at Rohini, where his conference is scheduled. Suddenly, such a vaccum, void, has stepped in. Suddenly today, I find myself in drained in sleep loss, drowning in odd daytime naps, dehydration, depression, gravitas, I feel completely out of phase! Such a Void/ vaccum at 100% max Saturn Retro. Such a thick gloom. Last year, Retro 2012, I was busy comparing the contrast with Retro 2009, completely/ utterly forgetting what 100 % Max retro, was essentially all about!  Especially, for a Saturn ruled person. About restraint, gravitas, delay, solemnity, pressure, void, emptiness, etc. Such is the ritualistic demand. The physical dimension of things. Demanded of us Saturnines, during Saturn Retro. Especially, towards the peak of Max 100 % Retro velocity. The situation, occasion, excuse, might be anything, but the schedule of formal ritual remains. The nythic storyline, continues to re-enact itself. One way, or another. Time after Time..

Later, Deepali Junjappa arrived, a friend from Mumbai college days, whom I’d last met 14 years earlier. Gutlu, I, Sangeeta, xelu woi, Niyorkona, gathered ad hoc on our terrace. Gutlu, and Deepali were at their comic best, amking us laugh with their unique comdedy. It was a welcome respite of a breeze in this acute phase…




DATE
Saturn Retro
Velocity
Daily
Acceleration
Basant Navaratra
Chaitra Devi Pakshya
TOTAL IMPACT=
Retro Vel + Devi Pakshya
11th April
4’ 14”=  93.0 %

Pratipad= 6.66 %
93 % + 6.6% =  99.6 %
12th April
4’ 16”=  93.7 %
+ 0.7 %
Dwitiya=    13.33 %
93.7 % + 13.3 % = 107 %
13th April
4’ 19”=  94.8 %
+ 1.1 %
Tritiya=    20 %
94.8 % + 20 % = 115 %
14th April
4’ 20”=  95.2 %
+ 0.4 %
Chaturthi=  26.6 %
95.2 % + 26.6 % = 121. 8 %
15th April
4’ 21”=  95.6 %
+ 0.4 %
Panchami=  33.3 %
95.6 % + 33.3 % = 128.9 %
16th April
4’ 24”=  96.7 %
+ 1.1 %
Sasthi=  40 %
96.7 % + 40 % =  136.7 %
17th April
4’ 25”=  97.0 %
+ 0.3 %
Saptamii=  46.6 %
97.0 % + 46.6 % = 143.6 %
18th April
4’ 26”=  97.4 %
+ 0.4 %
Ashtami=  53.3 %
97.4 % + 53.3 % = 150.7%
19th April
4’ 28”=  98.16 %
+ 0.7 %
Ashtami= 60 %
98.1 % + 60 % =  158.1%
20th April
4’ 30”=  98.9 %
+ 0.7 %
Navami=  66.6 %
98.9 % + 66.6 % = 165.5 %
21st April
4’ 30”=  98.9 %
0 %
Dashami=  73.3 %
98.9 % + 73.3 % = 172.2
22nd  April
4’ 31”=  99.2 %
+ 0.3 %
Ekadashi=  80%
99.2 % + 80 % = 179. 2
23rd  April
4’ 32”=  99.6 %
+ 0.4 %
Dvadashi=  86.6 %
99.6 % + 86.6 % = 186.2
24th April
4’ 32”=  99.6 %
0 %
Trayodashi/ Chaturdashi =  93.3%
99.6 % + 93.3% = 192.9
25th April
4’ 33”=  100 %
+ 0.4 %
Purnima= 100%
100 % + 100% = 200 %
26th April
4’ 33”=  100 %
 0 %
Krishna-1= 93.3%
100 % + 93.3% = 193.3%
27th April
4’ 34”= 100.36 %
+ 0.36 %
Krishna-2= 86.6 %
100.3 % + 86.6 % = 187%
28th April
4’ 33”=  100 %
- 0.36 %
Krishna-3= 80%
100 % + 80% = 180 %
29th April

4’ 34”= 100.36 %
+ 0.36 %
Krishna-4= 73.3 %
100.3 % + 73.3 %= 174 %
30th April
4’ 33”= 100 %
- 0.36 %
Krishna-5= 66.6 %
100 % + 66.6 % = 167%
1st May
4’ 33”= 100 %
0 %
Krishna-6= 60 %
100 % + 60 % = 160 %
2nd May
4’ 32”=  99.6 %
- 0.4 %
Krishna-7= 53.3 %
99.6 % + 53.3 % = 153 %