Log 02: Comprehending Lord Varuna

(Rahu transit thru Scorpio : 6 jun 2011- 22nd Dec 2012. )

For me, Neptune reflects the UNDERLYING PICTURE, the visceral, emotional , psychological, subjective reflection of the planetary Transit I am currently going through. The current Rahu transit thru Scorpio is happening in the my 2nd house.. where Neptune is himself placed in my Natal/ Birth chart. This VERY current Rahu + Natal Neptune conjunction has led to the re-creation, renaming of this blog to Neptune Notes. What I thought was a voluntary/ objective/ wilful act of creation turned out to be merely a consequence/ reflection/ effect/ side effect of this current Rahu + Natal Neptune transit!!

Rahu exits Scorpio on 23rd Dec, another 4 weeks approx. The current 18 months have been strangely vicious, as my Neptune ruled persona, my Neptunian INADEQUACIES (impractical, mystical dreamer, non material, ungrounded, wastrel etc, etc) came into Strong Focus of sweet near and dear ones. And I came under heavy criticism from all quarters.  But it's this SAME painful transit that ended in the creation of this blog dedicated to narration of the Neptunian experience. And shedding invaluable light on Lord Varuna! I had been  worshipping The Vedic deity Varuna since long,  thinking him to be the Vedic astrology counterpart of Neptune. But in this very transit the TRUE Underlying picture of Lord Varuna's energies were revealed to me. He is a combination OF Neptune WITH Rahu energies. Lord Varuna is the perfect reflection of Rahu + Natal Neptune in my birthchart, in Rahu's current transit thru Scorpio. Each transitory planetary combination seems to have its specific deity!! And for me this current Rahu + Natal Neptune transit in my 2nd house, Scorpio was completely RULED by Lord Varuna!!!
Hence though this current 18 month Rahu transit thru my 2nd house has been catastrophic in terms of  finance, cash flow,  friendships, close people, harsh criticisms, etc(2nd house ruling topics), but ultimately it is this very  Rahu + Natal Neptune combination that revealed the true nature of Lord Varuna. As a mixture of Rahu and Neptune energies. And about the Role of Lord Varuna in my life: BOTH as a Severe Karmic taskmaster AND as a teacher of underwater/ underlying secrets. And also this transit also began this subjective, personal, Neptunian blog. 
Om Vam Varunai Namah!

Log 01: Neptune journey begins

Only after having renamed this blog (for the nth, 34th time), this time to Neptune Logs, am I having this indistinct feeling inside, that a I have finally done a true and honest thing. Under which, I can begin to testify, narrate, share, analyse my personal/ visceral/ astrological/ mystical/ Karmic experiences of things. Under the banner of Neptune, all the complex, half breed, half formed, hazy, cloudy, dissolved, diffused, nebulous, fringe, complex, intangible, layered EXPERIENCES that I often, usually, and frequently undergo, will finally find some platform of expression. For each one of us is primarily related to a specific Planetary Archetype. And after 10+ years of astrological research, occult studies, I conclude that I AM the Neptune archetype. Neptune IS the backwater of my mind, the Swamp of my soul, the layered haven of my spirit, the nature of my character, the quality of my disposition. Neptune archetype is who I am!! After a LIFETIME  of DENIAL and half a million short lived/ shoddy attempts to cover my INNER NATURE under more agreeable, practical, competent, respectable, flattering MASKS, I finally conclude the truth... of my being the complete Neptune archetype. Thus, at 39 years, 2 months, on this Saturday night of 24th November, 2012, I take off my other objective masks, phallocentric, ideological EXCUSES, and BEGIN this Neptunian narration, commence this Neptunian voyage, embark on this Neptunian journey of self discovery, contemplations, and revelations..

Karmic Debts 01: Karmic Strategies..

All of us are born with past life karma. Residues of a former incarnation that we are deemed to CLEAR in this life. KNOWING this fact,ACCEPTING this fact is half the battle. Everyone doesn't have the wisdom to understand this. It is a privilege. Wisdom is an uncommon occurrence. Often it comes after undergoing lot of trial and tribulation. For me, my past life Karma is broadly expressed in the form of Rahu in the 3rd house of my astro chart, debilitated in the sign of Saggitarius, in Moola nakshtra. This finds me coming across Karmic mountains, mountains of mammoth obstacles/ crisis and obstruction, time to time. Understanding the Karmic perspective to this repeating phenomenon helps me address in the proper manner. Whenever I face mammoth/ colossal/ mountainous obstacles and catastrophe, I try to remember and keep in mind THAT I'm merely bearing the Dark harvests of my own past misdeeds. I definitely must have caused untold chaos to others to be facing the same in this life. I have tried to adopt strategies and techniques which keep in mind this overall Karmic picture: 1. Since chaos is my birthright, I have adopted Vastu/ astrology/ healing/ counseling as my career. One way or other chaos WILL come my way, so better take a profession where you're helping others in their own chaos. An opportunity to earn some blessings. An opportunity to payback some of the Karmic Debts incurred in prior lives. Manta a times when I try to follow hardcore architecture with NO components of healing/ Vaastu, progressive suggestions, I often find terrible catastrophe plaguing that particular project. That's why, often if a hard core, Non- Vastu, "no nonsense" architectural/ interior project comes my way, I STRICTLY collaborate, team up with a fellow member/ friend of my own profession to see the project see the light of day. 2. I engage in astrology, astro counseling free/ pro Bono, engage a LOT of time in social service, helping others. This helps me reduce the wrath of the past Karma incurred in previous incarnations.

Karmic Debts 00: Introduction

Karmic Debts are debts we owe due to mistakes we had committed in earlier lives and which haunt us as chronic problems in our current life. This topic series explores the phenomenon of  Karmic Debts.

Many of the chronic problems that we face in our current life are because  of   unpaid Karmic Debts. These unpaid debts haunt us through various physical, mental afflictions. The first 30 years of my life I used to frequently be sick, almost all the time. Later as i explored astrology, Nadi palm leaf readings, especially the 11th chapter pertaining to past life karma, I came to know in detail about past riin (debts). Slowly as i began performing the therapies, the problems also reduced. Generally, in an horoscope, past life debts are indicated by the 6th, 8th and 12th house. The 12th house, the house of loss, is the chief indicator of Karmic Debts. Location of any planet indicates that, there is are Karmic debts to be paid.

Personal Observations:

In my horoscope, i have Sun and Mercury in my 12th house of Virgo. Hence I avoid too much Solaramd  Mercurial energies. I avoid having too much Wood element  (which is ruled by Mercury). I use green minimally in my surroundings. i use a lot of water element to balance the hot Sun energies, and airy Mercury element in my chart. Instead i focus more on the West direction ruled by Shanidev/ Saturn,  who is highly beneficial for me. I worship Varuna, the ruler of West, for his oceanic blessings. I opt to  be Chilled out..  ;)

Saturn Retro 2012: Voluntary Backwards Fall

Saturn Retro's a time for regression for Saturn ruled  people. This year, I'm voluntarily Regressing. Falling backwards in time. In hometown Guwahati. In a Karmic voyage into the insides of my soul. Inland waterways of complex, fragmented journeys. Introspection. Retrospection. Contemplating into the past years crossed. Also voluntarily drowning  in the compulsory fragmentation inherent during Saturn Retro. Drowning voluntarily in backwaters. Bogs and inland waterways of forgotten memories. Listening and discovering songs such as this; Jeff Beck magic. I'm experiencing an inward folding, collapsing.
In my daily journals and accounts, I'm finding a lot of stark contrast/opposition with daily journal of Saturn Retro 2009. Whereas in 2009, I was in Will To Power, focussed, objective mode. This year finds me flowing all over the terrain. Like a fragmented, wanderlust, rouge river. without any direction or path. In a subjective, mood, cloudy and dispersed. Voluntary regression. Journals of overflooding archives. Fragmented cobwebs of vague notions.

Chronicle 07: Pitra Tarpan ritual at Haridwar..

On Monday, 20th Mar, 2012, I visited Haridwar with client/ friend Ila  Jain and her sister in law. We went to Shanti Kunj ashram and performed Pitra Tarpan ritual to absolve Pitra Dosh effects in our birth charts. In earlier posts I had explained how astrologer Savita Jain had revealed Pitra Dosh in my horoscope, in form of Saturn+ Ketu in my 9th house. After knowing this I began a series of tributes, ritual dedicated to the Pitras and began this blog especially dedicated to Pitra Karma. For long I had wanted to visit  Haridwar and perform a Pitra Tarpan ritual under a enlightened, vedic priest. But as in the case of all pending Karmic blockage, I always found the way blocked.
So finally when my client Ila Jain who was relative of astrologer Savita ji, told she was going to Haridwar to perform the same, I was considerably elated. Sometimes we need that strategic / small external intervention to help us when our own ways are blocked. So i came over to her place overnight so that i wouldnt miss the early morning departure to Haridwar. But early Monday morning, I awoke with severe acidity, heartburn, gas, palpitation, giddiness. It would be impossible for me to go to Haridwar as nothing was subsiding the acid levels. But Ila Ji being the wise host, offered me 1/4 glass of cold milk. Sometimes we need that small friendly intervention to help us when our own ways are blocked. Slowly the giddiness, heartburn, extreme disorientation seemed to be lessened. And finally we somehow set out to Haridwar.


Shanti Kunj ashram was a big campus full of medicinal gardens, hostels, prayer halls, temples... the whole works!!. Because of Savita ji's references, a dedicated priest took the three of us seperately and did an exclusive Pitra Tarpan ritual for us. He explained EACH and EVERY step of the Tarpan ritual, its significances, philosophies, dedications. A ritual which takes max five minutes by rogue priests took us more than TWO HOURS!! They didnt charge/ fleece us. Whatever WE felt comfortable to offer to the charitable trust of the ashram was accepted. A FAR cry from the usual experience of religious rituals!! Later we went to the ganges and offered Tarpan offerings of wheat/ flour to the gigantic fish swimming in its clear, clean refreshing cool waters. Ghat no 16 was farway from the maddening crowdes and felt heavenly...!!
The only crowds were schools of fish that crowded to eat our food offerings.
I thank the Pitras, Lord Vishnu, and my client Ila Jain for creating this graceful opportunity. My thousand thanks to astrologer Savita Jain who had enlightened us about Pitra Dosh, and guided us to right channel of Shanti Kunj ashram at Haridwar. Om Pitra Ganay Namah...

Saturn Retro 2012: Ideal time for Karmic repayment

Every year Saturn goes retrograde for 4.5 months. For Saturn ruled people, its time for hibernation, retreat, regression, moving bakwards. And ideal time for Karmic Repayment! However, for Sun ruled people its time for progress, positivity, energy and speed. Since 2005, I have heavily researched and tried to utilise this annual Saturn retro period. Those years, when i've sufficiently moved backwards/ regressed during Saturn retro, rest of the year i enjoyed PROGRESSION. Like how an arrow pulled back by a bow, later flies ahead. And Vice Versa.
This year I experienced regression during Saturn retro in another level altogether. We had to shift house TWICE within a single month. A long deferred decision which we had been pending for past SIX years finally caught up with us. Father in law came for cystoscopy and i stayed one week in medicity. Plumbing problems, water isuues, chaos, rupture. This time, I've timely scheduled my annual Karmic repayment time. Hope, I'm able to clear a lot of pending Karma during Saturn Retro 2012.

Chronicle 06: Different Schemes of Repayment

Sometimes we pay back pending Karmic payments in long term easy installments. And sometimes we have to payback in extreme/acute high repayments. For me, a period of high repayments was taking place in February, 2012. After dilly dallying, delaying, postponing house change for past FIVE years, we finally had to shift house TWICE in February.  Like a long avoided, deferred payment, which finally catches up with you. WITH HIGH ACCUMULATED INTEREST. And pay I had to, with every pore of my body, mind and soul. While writing this post with an aching body, tired mind, I'm realising the existence of accumulating interests. Would'nt it have been much better to pay in easier terms and conditions. But, at least one long OVERpending FIVE YEAR delayed karmic repayment got over in a single month! Whew! For now!

Chronicle 05: Prayers to Pitamah Bhishma

21st Feb, Tuesday.  Yesterday was Shivratri, I was praying in a peripheral Shiva temple next to the crematorium between Nehru Place and Kalkaji mandir. Two serpent gods adorn both sides of the entrance door. It was the ideal location for homage to Pitras. After offering the customary offerings to shiva, i moved to a section dedicated to Pitamah Bhisma. Today being Shivaratri, people thronged around Shiva and I could sit peacefully in front of Pitamah Bhisma and meditate. On the battlefield of Kurukshetra Pitamah Bhishma laid on a bed of arrows. From Arjunas bow. And lord Krishna blessing him with salvation (moksh). It was an analogy to those of  us suffering from Pitra Dosh. On a bed of arrows we lay, until the Lord blessed us with slavation. The timeless drama repeated over and over again.

By evening a childhood friend of mine, who had not been in touch for donkeys years, called me out of the blue. His name is one of the synonyms for Lord Bhishma. I had always bitched about him not keeping in touch. But few hours after prayers to Pitamah Bhisma, he called after a gap of years!! Ultimately it's OUR OWN Karma which blocks us. No point bitching about others. Once absolved, it automatically removes barriers and blocks. And that's what I experienced yesterday. Practically.
Om pitra-ganay vidamahe, jagat dharinaye dhimahi, tanno Pitra prachodyat.

Chronicle 04: Processing Karmic Quotas

In the earlier post, I narrated my expreience with house shifting Karma. And today, after long, exhausting house shifting process, I can actually feel a lot of pending Karma reduce. You can see the symptoms of reduced Karmic quotas in the environment around you. Things that were previously blocked will gently start to open up. Only you would understand the difference. All of us have our own quotas of pending karmic  to be processed. We can accelerate the process by service, forbearnce, wisdom, compassion, helping people, vedic rituals, offerings to the almighty. Also by choosing to undergo certain fasts, voluntary sufferings. Main thing is to be aware of pending karma. And beging processing.