Saturn Retro 2013, 42- such MISTAKES!!

Day 49, Annual Saturn Retrograde 2013, 6^th April, Sunday. As repeated a thousand times before, Saturn Retrograde is a time of initiative, freshness, movement, progress for Sun ruled people. And a time for repeat, REWIND, recurrence, review, retrospection, RESURRECTION for Saturn ruled people. For Saturn ruled people it’s time to TRAVEL backwards in Time!!

After the previous overloaded, heavy post,  I dug deep into piles of junk and found all the misplaced journals of Saturn retrograde. I stayed late into the night, sleepless, poring over detailed journals, especially lat years, Saturn Retro 2012. I was aghast, horrified to find out what I discovered!! After SO many YEARS of Gyaan/knowledge, I still REPEATED a horrifying mistake during Saturn retro, 2012!! Though I had dealt with the beginning 2.5 months of rising retro quite well, towards the end my “Buddhi” (wisdom) became completely “bhrast” (corrupted). I, once again like 2006, 2007, 2008, and 2009, completely behaved like a total SOLAR person, and worst, during the most ACUTE phase of three weeks of  Saturn Ultra Retro!! Last year, the three week period of Saturn Ultra Retro, was from 20^th May, Sunday (103^rd day of Retro) approx. to 10^th Jun, Sunday (124^th day of Retro). Exact three weeks!! And, how did I behave those three weeks??

From Day 100^th of Retro, 2012, namely 17^th May, Thursday, I had first inkling/ signs of approaching Ultra Retro Crashdown of three weeks, as my wife called to say that her friends father who had been suffering long since from kidney problems had passed away. That same friend who had helped us find our first house in Vasant Kunj, during Saturn Retro 2012. I have always treated the three week Ultra Retro period ’09, of Saturn Retro 2009, namely 13^th April, Monday, ’09 to  3^rd May, Sunday, ’09 as the CLASSIC example of what NOT TO DO for a Saturn ruled person.  And have written endlessly about it, ever since. But what horror, to find me repeating the EXACT same mistake, last year in the 3 week period of Ultra Saturn retro, namely 20^th May- 10^th Jun, 2012. Blinded after knowing, researching, everything!! So utterly blinded!! Bikrit, Bhrast, Vrast buddhi!! Unbelievably horrific!! Repeating the same mistake!! After going 2/3^rd the way, in the end, collapsing into stupidity, blindness, and Crashdown. Into the SAME old Hole/ Trap!! An this year, 2013, the three weeks of Ultra retro, ARE the first three weeks of June!! Approx from 1^st Jun- 21^st Jun. Will I REPEAT the SAME “old” mistakes of past years, over AGAIN?? Suddenly the SAFE/ historical/ archival past has become.. a possible, immediate, CATSTROPHIC future!!!

 I want to share the unimaginable mistakes of last year, three weeks of Ultra Retro, 2012, so that I may (?) avoid (?) the same this year. In Ultra Retro, 2012, I was with friend Egghead in an unimaginable rupture of activity of film making, film watching, comic book writing, scripting, anti-gravity, a collective WORKSHOP of YOUNG blood focused on ME!! And my friend Egghead, is the most conservative soul, he is the most PARANOID, and skeptical/ wisest soul, but during THAT time, was in an unbelievable Trance, in an unimaginable Rapture of fundas, ambition, global projects, futuristic endeavours, transcendental objectives. Codeword: “Shining” dreams!! Sadly, he too, is Saturnine like me. And what about me? In three weks of  Saturn’s Ultra Retro 2012, I , myself was in an irrevocable Rapture of madness. What about my techncicolour, drunken, obsessed, dreams of ULTRA colour. MORE colourful than the Paris Trip during ultra retro, 2009, MORE colourful than the Louvre Museum on 29^th April, Wednesday, 2009, an unimaginable SOLAR/ SUN incarnate peak of Saturn’s Ultra Retro period of three weeks. And what unbelievable/ incredible/ awesome dreams they were!! The only problem WAS,  it was during the Ultra Retro period of 3 weeks of Saturn Retro, 2012, the highest PULLED BACK Stage of the Saturnine BOW!! Finally, when our “collective Trance’ crashed, it crashed DEEP into the MUD! Deepest underground!! “ALAS” is a good word to use for our MISTAKES of that period!

And, once Saturn’s Ultra Retro 2012, vanished on 10^th Jun, Sunday, 2012 night, rather, 11^th Jun, Monday morning, '12, it was a LONG, serpentine, downward Fall, forever!! An unbelievable downfall, mirroring the exact Downgoing, downfall of returning of Paris Trip, Ultra Retro, 2009 reaching on a Sunday afternoon,  HOT Delhi, summer, on 3rd May, Sunday evening or rather 4th May, Monday morning, 2009!! On 12th jun, 2012, i got a call from wife, our SE toilet ceiling of our Vasant Junk place, had CRASHED! Into the toilet!! Monstorous CRASHDOWN!!

The song I’m dedicating to this post, and which, I’m listening to in an endless LOOP is  “Your Mistake” or “Mistake” by Johnny Hates Jazz, an incredible song. Check out, youtube!

Saturn Retro 2013, 17- Reviewing 2008, 2009

Day 14- Annual Saturn Retrograde, 2013, 1st Mar, Friday. After a barrage of theoretical posts filled with colourful diagrams, today will be rather literary personal post. Where I take the existing period highly ideal for retrogression/ regression to travel backwards in time and retrospect/ review about saturn retro 2009 and 2008. And begin this post category "Saturn Retro Reviews".

In Saturn Retro, 2008, I teamed with one of my wife's friends Shreya  and a furniture company Wood Age, in Lajpat nagar, to form a big company / collaborative  in order to approach Medicty group for designing some very high ened villas. Larger/ grander/ bigger than life. But all it led to was myself and Shreya doing a toy shop in DT-Mega mall in Gurgaon, behind Bistrol hotel. The project itself was full of hitches. but MOSTLY once saturn turned directional, the whole endeavour flopped and I became less useful than a used tissue. I had
begun my grandest career move during the prime of saturn retrograde. that same season my dearest and favourite relative, fellow occult traveller Runima mami expired and yet I couldnt make time to return to hometown guwhati to pay my last homage and tribute. that regret will forever remain with me. So much was I proccupied with the grand developments, societal approvals of my sudden career breakthru that I couldnt make time for a short visit. But once saturn became directional, it all FIZZLED out completely and began my long second rounds of exiles. When i should have been retrospective, ruminative, I was abundantly progressive, futuristic. and hence beared the harvests of a malefic sowing for years to come. YES, for the annual cycle of saturn retrograde harvests effects that REACH far beyond, LAST far beyond the annual cycle, or the simple span of a year. The SEEDS SOWN DURING SATURN RETROGRADE HAS FAR REACHING EFFECTS. For both Sun and Saturn ruled people in their own opposite ways!!

Saturn Retro 2009, is a season, with whose residues, and effects , I'm STILL grappling with, till this date! first that year Annual Saturn Retro commenced from the very new year 1st of Jan, 2009! And I remember making off on a sudden flash to Mumbai to collect renew my lost architecture marksheets, graduation certificates from our college sir JJ College of Architecture, Mumbai. That itself was okay, cos I was travelling "backwards in time" returning to collect something, a residue from my former past. BUT later, my classmate/ friend Monindro gave me an offer of a 1 month long training program under him, to learn AutoCad, and brush up my working skills, etc. I accepted it. said 'Yes' when i should have said 'NO'. I ROSE to the challenge, the offer, Wherein, i should have just hung loose, and done something whimsical. I became a 'holy warrior" and 'noble soldier in path of a higher goal/ ideal. My inspiring directive that year/season was Nietzsches 'WILL TO POWER'. And I was following that holy, burning warrior Funda, full on!! Pushing on!! A completely Solar Path DURING Saturn Retrograde. And for that entire season, somehow, i remained COMPLETELY OBLIVIOUS to the schedule of saturn retrograde. BUT CHILLINGLY COINCIDENTAL WAS  that my fall began from the VERY EXACT POINT, exact date from when Saturn's Retro velocity after having reached maximum,had begun it's decreasd/ descent!! The decreasing Phase of Falling retro!! I completely followed the solar path unconsciously, by simmering down , 1 month during Falling Retro. Perfectly behaving like a solar Person. To the Dot!! Later when Ultra Retro, the most deadly triply intensified Solar tail commenced, on the first day, my long astro guru since five years T.N. Sarma expired. And yet, my wife had plans for us to go to Paris (me to accompany heron her office trip to Paris). And, in the peak of ULTRA RETRO, the most intensified Solar phase of Saturn Retro, I had gone off to Paris!! BOTH YEARS IN 2008 & 2009, SOMEONE CLOSE AND VITALLY TO MY OCCULT/ RELIGIOUS JOURNEY HAD DIED, AND YET I'D GONE OFF IN FALSE GLORY!! Later when 'Vanishing Point' of Saturn Retro occured on the very return flight from Paris. From the exact stop-over flight from Dubai. Something distinctly felt sinking. And once, we landed back into Delhi's prime heat, the downward journey that followed, the hangover that unfolded, was unimaginable. I tried to capture the crux of this 'Fall',the exact emotion of the Desert of Reality, on film titled 'After Paris'. The film has only five minutes of Paris and the entire joureny is about, well, .. After paris! The perfect testimony to void, hollowness, vaccum everything. A film
that i havent been able to finish till date!! The hangover, fallout, residue of 2009, has followed me till THIS date, haunted me to this date.

So, this Saturn Retrograde, 2013, when saturn is retrograde in my VERY ASCENDANT SIGN of Libra, hence, in the highly appropiate phase of 1st gear/ THRUST, of Rising Retrogade, I'm plummeting BACKWARDS! And using it for maximum archival activity. Churning out detailed accounts of former years, long crossed over mistakes, graphs, theories, refelctions, ruminations .NO momentum for me this time. rather as much as POSITION vector. ONLY observation, thought, review, retrospection, archive, etc. though, i am Saturnine guy, but because of my prior energies, sometimes completely behave like a completely SOLAR DUDE! And hence suffer the obvious effcts and consequences! Whole day, today, ahs gone by in vague stupidities, delays, stagnations, strangleholds, and stumbles. at least I will now try to put up some old photos from 2008/ 2009, below..

Saturn Retro 2013: 08- The Castalia of JNU Campus

Wednesday, 20th Feb. Day 3, Annual saturn Retro, 2013. Had been reading Herman Hesse's novel, Magister Ludi or The Glass Bead Game since quite some time now. saturn Retro is the ideal time to finish this Retrograde book. In this story, they describe Castalia, a order of Higher learning where they practice the Glass Bead Game, a symbolic art aesthetic 'game' represnting all the sciences, arts,philosophies, practices etc. Castalia is a haven for the scholars, academicians, philosophers, removed from the vestiges of normal life, self surrendered to the pursuit of higher learning. Monks isolated from the rigours of real world in the path of highest learning, wisdom and knowledge. Knecht the Hero of the novel is a guardian representing the magical Castalia, whilst his friend Designori, is a practical man of the world, representing the world with it's material imperfections and realities. Two worlds: One extremely Theoretical and one extremely
Practical. Like the two prevailing orders DURING Saturn retrograde: extremely real, tangible, practical world of the Solar/ sun energies. And extremely theoretical, abstract, contemplative Saturnine order.

I would compare Castalia with my favourite place in Delhi- J.N.U. Campus. A place where I have always ESCAPED to regularly for the past seven years of life in New Delhi, a city I took SO MUCH time to adapt. EVERYTIME, EACH DAY of the Past seven years,  that I have 
entered the J.N.U. campus to meet my friends scholar, now teacher priyam Barooah, and scholar, now teacher Chiranjib Sahoo, I found the campus, a HEAVENLY contrast, from the rigors of Delhi. Herman Hesse's Castalia in all it's makings. Like one of Castalia's monks, engaged in the most theoretical engagements. Like Castalia, scholars, Students, academics, in J.N.U, are suspended in their own parallel reality. A WORLD  removed from the outside urban megapolis of Delhi. A world in pursuit of the most conceptual, theretical pursuits which ultimately transform the world we live/ exist in. A world where policy, theory, normative concepts, guidelines take shape. which finally transform governance, administration. Especially in J.N.U., which produces the HIGHEST number of IAS officers, who finally create shape the future of the country. A scholar/ student in J.N.U., is perfectly symbolic of Saturn Retrograde, a embryo in utero, brooding, absorbing. Finally later when Saturn turns directional, these very theoreticians take the most practical mantles of administration of responsibilty. and shape our daily, administrative, MATERIAL reailty of our Country!

In this saturn Reto, 2013, as a Saturn ruled dude, I would officially practice the Castalian 'Glass Bead Game'. engaged in the thesis, theoritical exercises of a JNU scholar. Engage in constructs of the most virtual, abstract, theoretical, mathematical, conceptual nature.
Cheers to Hesse's Castalia. cheers to J.N.U campus. It's spirit of theoretical philosophy would rule this Annual saturn Retro, 2013 of 4.5 months.
Cheers to my friend Priyam Barooah who involved me actively in the theoretical aspect of her History thesis. Cheers to our endlessly long walks, rhetorics, engaging, endless discussions, conversation endlessly sprawling across all seasons, days, weeks, months and endless years. And which,helped me hone my academic disposition SO vital and neccesary to adress the meta-dynamics of Saturn Retro functions. Cheers!

Saturn Retro 2013: 07- Reviewing older Falls

Day 3. Since yesterday I've been here to visit my friend who got operated on Monday. Yesterday was here whole day at Sukhdev Vihar at his place. And night, went back to compile the comprehensive Annual Saturn Retro graph with detailed color coding. Today morning re-edited it before coming here. Feel like I'm moving backwards in Time! Today drowning in endless movies, especially John Carter of Mars. Concept is like Avataar and Last Sction Hero. Heroes belonging in a more exciting Realm somehow trapped in our lesser exciting mundane reality by circumstance. You can feel heaviness, gravity, after watching such movies. What Edgar Allan Poe calls the 'Lifting Of the veil' in his tale, House of Usher. The after effects, return to reality after the effects of colorful delusion has worn off! Bleak, empty, desolate, desert of the real. Perfect realm to be dwelling in this 3rd day of Annual Saturn Retro, 2013. I recall Saturn Retro 2009 when during Retro peak I accompanied my wife on her office trip to Paris. EVEN after my late guru, Astro T.N. Sarma had expired merely a few days earlier. I said YES, when I should have said NO. THE CLASSIC SATURN RETRO FATAL ERROR! Hundreds of websites on Saturn Retro say this over and over again, Just google it. I was in the Louvre museum on Wednesday, in the highest/ MOST ACUTE PHASE, I.e, Ultra Retro 2009. AND WHEN Saturn Directional later it was ONE LONG DOWNGOING journey for me! A long, deep, eternal Down-FALL. The word 'Fall' repeatedly thrust in my face thru two works: The Fall, a novel by Albert Camus, and The Fall by Tarsem Singh, an unimaginably Retrograde movie, by the maker of the Epically movie 'The Cell' starring Jennifer Lopez.
Informally, here and now I have begun the process of REVIEW/ REDEMPTION/ REGRESSION by talking/ reviewing about Retro 2009, the Paris Trip during Ultra Retro. Right now while I'm writing this out on my friends Tablet, movie Constantine stg Keanu Reeves is playing in front of me. A tale of demons, angels, heaven, hell. From this point onwards I'll merely narrate, without much formulation and explanation. Commence full force with the process of  REVIEW/ REDEMPTION/ REGRESSION. Identify former Saturn Retro seasons. And where I went wrong and what I had to undergo when later Saturn went Directional. Today, a client/ friend of my mine called up. She's the owner of one of the biggest Art Galleries in Delhi. But I was obviously lukewarm, blank, spaced, and NOT my usual peppy, energetic, enthusiastic self. At the end of our conversation, she was almost laughing at me. Here I am, trying to REVERSE the mistakes of prior Retro Seasons. And I think later from prior births also, heh, heh. After all, Nadi astrology did 'predict' my former life sins as a Kshatriyas warrior and my birth Nkashatra is Krittika, the first Solar constellation! Retrograde is the ONLY zone of purgation, purification, of former Solar mistakes. Regressing if only to clear out JUNK.