Time for Karmic Cleansing: 20th sep- 4th Oct

Kalsarp Yog + Pitri pakshya: 20th Sep - 4th Oct

As I narrated in detail my earlier post, Kalsarp Yog is going on from from 28th April- 2nd Oct. MUCH more significant is, that the last leg of this Five month long Kalsarp Yog, overlaps with annual Pitri/ Preta Pakshya or Shraddh period from 20th Sep - 4th Oct.  Making this a Super Special period for all kinds of Karmic Cleansing. Be it regarding paying tributes to departed souls of near and dear ones, or be it to tribute and honour to past experiences. I would say, that this is a special period for the 12th house in your horoscope. Signifying past debts, past Karmic Connections. It is highly advisable not to commence anything NEW or fresh in this period. merely use it to continue older things, regurgiate, older and continuing things. Bring your to focus to LONG PENDING issues.

Significance of this Rare Period
This IS a very special phase where Kalsarp Yog is OVERLAPPING with 2013's annual Pitra/ Preta Paksha period. This conjunct has tremendous Karmic/ occult significances. Kalsarp yog as explained in detail in my earlier post, is a period when ALL planets (excluding the oscillating/ shifty Moon), are HEMMED/ HEDGED on Side of the Rahu Ketu axis. This period signifies the Shedding of the older skin of the Kalsarp, the Serpent of Time. And as evryone already knows Pitra/ Preta Paksha period is to pay homage to departed souls, old matters before the Fresh new period of Navaratra sets in. Hence, BOTH these extremely Regressive phases overlapping each other brings special energies to the environment around us.

Personally speaking
After the blast/ high of my 40th birthday, Iwas feeling very much dehydrated. On 19th noon, i had a old leftover ice cream bar, lurking in the back of the ice box. As soon as i had it, i felt something was wrong. I later tried to compensate by having a lot of hot pepper. At night, I had leftover spicy meat curry from my birthday gift from Rinku. From 20th morning I was completely down and out, in illness, throat infection, fever, etc. But more than the bodily discomfiture, I noticed that my mind was running all over the place. Random thoughts from lurking corners of the shadowy past were blooming all over my consciousness. The brain was going in a retro mode. To the world of blurred edges, margins, fringes. Long lost issues, pending thoughts suddenly made their way into the forefront. At least, I was IN TUNE, with the universal order of things. From 19th evening itself, I had spontaneously faded in, into this regressive, illness, mode. And, though from a bodily standpoint, feeling obviously bad, FROM a Broader perspective... perfect timing!
Slowly, i noticed, that a lot of people from past histories were making their entrance into my life. So at least, in this illness/ regression/ contemplation, i can do some effective Karmic Cleansing. From 20th sep- 4th Oct!!

Suggestions for this phase

1. Charitable acts, donating food items to poor is a great way to appease the departed souls. 
2. Participating in Tarpan rituals, memorial homage to their memories assist their journey across heavens. 
3. Helping, assisting others in their problems. Lending a kind shoulder.
4. Prayers, chanting, meditation is really helpful. 
5. Any kind of reflection, remembrance, nostalgia, retrospection, and contemplation is perfect!

Occult/ Karmic Potential of this Phase:
This very special phase where both Kalsarp Yog and Pitra/ Preta Paksha are in conjunct brings many occult/ Karmic potentials to those aware of it. Just imagine, Kalsarp, the Serpent of Time has entered the Ghost Zone, Preta/ Pitra Paksha. Making it IDEAL for accessing pending, haunting, issues in our lives. And trying to make amends to them. This period gives EASY access into the subconscious, semi consciousness of our minds. To access those gray lurking, areas in the fringes, edges of our consciousness. You mind suddenly find yourself regressing into past thoughts, pending and vexing matters. Don't worry, you ARE perfectly on universal schedule! In fact THIS is the TIME to not move forward BUT wait, pause, chew the cud, face your inner demons, resolve them, and finally move forward with FRESHEST NEW energy the Universe has to offer, from 5th Oct!!

Sombre White V.s. Sexy Black:
sombre White V.S. sexy Black I always wondered about the Vedic association of the colour white  to sraddha, mourning, widowhood, funeral rituals. Why not black, as universally ascribed in the Western
world to mourning rituals, funerals, gloominess, etc. This preta paksha + kalsarp yoga, I've ACTUALLY comprehended the underlying connection of white and mourning. Actually personally experienced it in a subjective and physical manner. Especially, after online interaction with a Qabbalah scholar and  magickal practitioner, Ty Dawson. Who had some fantastic insights in facebook notes on  the sephiroth dynamics. Especially in the cosmic Opposition/ dynamics of sephiroth (2) Chokmah, representing the Divine Cosmic Father versus Sephiroth (3) Binah, representing the Divine Cosmic Mother.

After much thought, i came to an overwhelming conclusion. The best way to describe my past ten days of Pitru Paksha (especially boosted by the current Kalsarp Yog ): I have been feeling WHITE! White as in paleness, colourless, sparse, ni- ras ( devoid of rasa). White as in the universal scourge that bleaches our life, and makes it colourless. As opposed to serpentine, magickal, fluidic potency of Black. Black as in Kali/ Tara, mystery, power, occult, magic of Shakti. WHITE as in the formal, sombre white, sterile interiors of a hospital, or the white board room of a corporate interiors. Black as in the feminine, energies of the night, Saturnine mysteries, the Third Sephiroth of Binah. WHITE as Chokmah, the blazing energy, the masculine Godhead, The Jupiterean father, Divine cosmic Father, Pitra/ Brahma/ Brihaspati.

The SOMBRE WHITE connecting all rituals during Pitru paksha, paying obeisance to the Divine father, Brahma, Brihaspati, Pitra, worshipped in form of departed ancestors. WILD BLACK, as in the prevalence of shakti energies running fluid, and dynamic, for the entire course of the rest of the year! It's interesting to note that due to various curses, lord Brahma/ Pitra is only worshipped during this period of Pitra Paksh! Hence, original Vedic standpoint is more from the point of Binah ( worship of Cosmic Divine Mother), rather than Chokmah signifying the worship of Cosmic Divine Father, represented by
christianity.

Damn! due to the influence of Pitru Paksh/ Brahma/ Pitra, I'm sounding like an Jupiterean scholar, a priestly guy, a knowledgeable scholar. Not me, at all!! FOR, I'm a Saturnine, Binah ruled guy, full of flux, duality, fluid motion, and deconstruction. And this Pitra/ Chokmah (2) phase is helping me understand and recognise my own inner Binah / Saturnine nature much better! BUT FOR A CONSIDERABLE TIME IN MY LIFE REGRADLESS/ IGNORANT OF MY INNER NATURE, i had been ADOPTING and IMBIBING the Jupiterean principles of Chokmah/ Divine father/ Cosmic Patriarch/ Brahma principles. At my own cost. At my own great undoing..!!

Personal updates, 30th sept, Monday:
I had planned a Live update for this very special phase from 20th sep- 4th Oct, where both Kalsarp Yog and Pitra/ Preta Paksha are in conjunct. But events unfolding found me in such a scattered mode, that it was difficult to cohere and integrate the ideas together. Here, I attempt, at the Tenth day:

1. Firstly, there was a noticeable lack of constructive/ productive activities. Especially in a usual, slow, unfolding, continuing way, that it normally happens for me. All positivity happened in spurts/ flashes and vanished. There was a lot of combustion, irritation, all around. 
2. And my illness which began from 20th Sep, has somehow magically persisted, continued into this TENTH day. On many occasions I found myself indulging in diet, stuff that regressed the healing process. Neither did I managed to land up at an allopathic doctor for qucik, and fast solution. Somehow, I had (in) voluntarily LINGERED this long illness, even as I write now! The entire time has passed by in a hazy, blur of incoherence.
3. A Lot of Pending Issues, vexing matters were resurrected all around me. People went into retrospection modes. Old pending stuff from years and years back has been unearthed. Which brought a very heavy mood to me overall. Definitely, acceleration, forward motion, change had completely halted all around. I could distinctly feel a REGRESS into my old habits, moods, dispositions.
4. I started seeing series of repetitive haunting dreams in this period. Especially those, that I associate with the typical taste of past life residues. In these past  10 days, it's like, I became a zombie, walking around in a cloudy haze. More than the account of my prevailing ilness, it was the natural disposition. I had briefly gone to the mall, yesterday, with a friend Nayanika. But even then, amidst the hulabaloo of the shining lights, we traversed on OLD, pending topics, unearthing dark, shady secrets. Very unlikely, in the bright, lights of Select Citywalk Mall, Saket. 
5. Today, as I write this, on the hustle of a workday morning, I STILL feel the linegring, oppressive, cloudy haze. Have I managed to cross these last tend days appropriately? All i can remember is a hazy blur. This entire week lies ahead. Only will it get over, hopefully, on Saturday! Cheers/ all d best!    

 @ Fag End of Kalsarpa's Tail
I had planned to update earlier, but, due to technical editing, formatting problems, it's only now, today morning, that I am being able to manage. These events/ phases/ energies have their own life/ Ego, they Choose WHEN to be updated or narrated! ;)
The cough, cold, that began on 20th Oct, still somehow continues, after brief pauses of relief, release. Even, i'm not helping it by two bouts of cold beer drinking, once, on the Eve of Kalsraps end.
1st Oct, Tuesday
Evening, we went to drop sango's employee Sugandha to her home at Hauz Khas, bcos it was too late. Later ended up partying at Cafe OTB, terrace floor. Suddenly partying, just 14 hrs before the FIVE MONTH long Kalsarp Yog ended. On the Very EVE of Kalsarps end! Later at home was called by Landlord/ guide Sunil at 11:30, (u-characteristically, as he sleeps sharp by 10 pm) to check a horoscope of his family friend. They too going thru this Kalsarp effects since past five months. Reading the horoscope at midnight hour felt so omnious of the changing times. Later chatted and reconnected with old pal Neeraj from my traumatic Mumbai struggling musician in Bollywood days. So many past memories were awash all over me. So very much of them. The Hindi term is: SAILAAB: the flood of emotions!! Till 2:30 am, until wife gave jhaaru on me! 
 2nd Oct, Wednesday 
Awoke, foggy, drowsy, cloudy brain, hang over, from all that spicy food, beer, outside it was a National Holiday, Gandhi Jayanti. Felt so Barren/ white/ Wednesday morning. The barren white scourge of death. gimme sexy/ black night time, ANY day.. er night! PALE, dead WHITE, barren desert. The VOID of  Wednesday morning! Sun +Mercury (Budha+ aditya Yog)  in my 12th house of Karmic Debts/ loss. Every morning feels so drained for me. ESPECIALLY, Wednesday and Sunday mornings.Eemphasising Karmic Debts. This Preta Paksh morning felt so ESPECIALLY barren, VOID, desert like. What Deleuze calls the "Desert of the Real". 
Later afternoon had to go to friend Pratisha's pre birthday celbrations at Gurgaon. The entire day wife was stuck in sending some important online document. Later, no auto, driver on holiday, metro was unimaginably late!!  We finally reached her place at Sohna road, Gurgaon, around 4 o clock, for LUNCH! Ominously,  much after 2:25 pm, the exact moment of Kalsarp's end, as Venus moved into Scorpio, ending this FIVE MONTH long Kalsarp Yog! After we reached Pratisha's place, I partied hard. Drowned myself in beer and fried chicken. In fact, I almost conked off towards the end! What astrological timing, this celebration AT the very END of 5 months of Kalsarp Yog! But I deferred to put up her b day snaps, UNTIL Saturday, once this Pitra Paksh phase also finally ends! I wanted this sickly photo, sickly body, sickly mind, sickly state  of mine to REMAIN until the end of Pitra Paksh. Wanted to do this by the book, this Karmic phase. Later evening, we came to meet our Landlord sunil, and joined him in Chanting for 1/2 hour. Later at night, I did/ could feel some pressure points of the body trickle away. Definitely Kalsarps invisible pressure were relenting. I found it AMAZING that the body/ mind, being able to sense and register these Phase changes!! 
3rd Oct, Thursday
Morning I can distinctly feel the continuing morose stranglehold of Pitra Paksh. The cloudy, white, hangover, feeling of moroseness. Perfectly and exactly like a sradhh/ Vedic funeral ceremony. The very whiteness of Brahma's sterile, austere clothes.  Because prior to this year, I somehow had quite the partying and energising during Pitra Paksh, strange! And a definitive sense of body burning,  ONCE Devi Paksh began! I can say, that this phase has adhered since Pitra/ Devi Paksha of Oct, 2005. A month before my marriage. This time, also the partying has happened, but on EVE of Kalsarps end and the HOUR of Kalsarp's end. And today morning, I still feel the extreme morose, gloomy atmosphere of the Vedic sraddha/ Funeral. The exact description of Edgar Allan Poe's classic story, The Fall Of The House Of Usher, regarding the invisible layer of desolation. 
I can also relate this feeling of Death, Pale Whiteness to Dhumavati, the cosmic Widow! The morose sterile austerity of a monk, bereft from the juicy, blood/ sweat/ tears/ ooze of physical, material reality. I can understand Brahma/ Pitra's energies. The cloudy, misty, desolation of Pale white.

1: 40 pm: Today, 3rd Oct, Thursday, while going to the nearby Sanatan Dharam, Navagraha Temple, for my weekly Daan/ donation to Brihaspati/ Jupiter, I prayed to Jupiter as Brihaspati/ Brahma/ Pitra. Like my late astro guru T.N. Sarma once indicated, that only Jupiter indicating Pitra/ Brahma can be worshiped during Pitra Paksh/ sraddh. So for me, it was merely substituting the alternative names of Jupiter/ Brihaspati during my weekly ritual. And after exiting the temple, I brought biscuits and distributed them to poor people around. Todays Chaturdashi Tithi, penultimate day of Pitra Paksh, special day for praying for souls of departed who died of Violent/ unnatural deaths: accidents, violence, suicide, poisoning, unnatural circumstances. After returning from the temple, I was browsing briefly through my journals of earlier years.. and yes, there was somehow a LOT of partying involved annualy during this period of Pitra Paksh/ mourning. I felt like such and utter fool, reading my crawly handwritten journal notes. About "celebrating in memorial to departed ancestors, dead souls'. "partying" in memory to their memories. Haha! Conversely, today, I feel the burning white of the air around. The sterile heaviness of the light ( I could have been a poet). 

9: 58 pm:  An Ode to Poe and lovecraft
The day went by in so much heaviness. Even though my friend Susmit had come down early from work, and I had gone off to get some snacks for the office from CR Park, Market No.2. My wife haad indigestion after having the samosas and was cursing me.  I had to go see some furniture samples with wife to traffic jam packed Yusuf  Sarai @ evening jam. Problems with the driver. Stomach feeling queasy from haphazard food. I'm feeling a vast lethargy, all around me. I was reading through some stuff bu my favourite writers H.P Lovecraft and Edgar Allan Poe, and it's hard not to believe, that such desolate, dark demonic emotions specific to this Pitru Paksha had not touched their subconscious, their creativity. Meanwhile could only crawl to Chapter VIII of the Garuda Puran, as rituals suggested during this phase. Paramount heaviness. A gloom that must have crawled from ancient ages. The description of Vaitarani river in Garuda Puran, the river of catharsis and gloom. One should read these texts to understand the prevailing heaviness of this Tamasic phase. What I find ironic, that this phase in the past many years was quite buzzing and boosting for me. Something has changed along the way.  Maybe my equation with Shakti- Pitra polar opposition. 
LATER, one friend had called me over for dinner at his place, as his mum had come over. But somehow, i couldn't gather myself together, to reach or set out. I regressed back into the stupor of  severe domestic inertia. Even in the daytime, as i had randomly regressed through facebook, I came upon Demonic pages from far and across. Even my mind was slow,  I regressed into times, far and ancient. Of heavy topics, and desert wastelands, crossed in yore. Let these words of mine pay homage to the hovering spirits, homeless wraiths of Pitru Paksha. When the daemonic, un-resolved souls descent to earthly realm.
Damn, re reading these lines, I could have become a profound writer, but sadly the juice oozes only during cathartic expulsions, i.e, when I'm NOT trying to CREATE but rather exorcise/ catahrsize myself of heavy, burdensome loads upon my soul. In a ritualistic and cathartic manner. ONLY when I'm trying to exorcise these passing inner demons! Sun+ Merc in 12th house, Virgo makes this phenomenon slightly understood. Damn, i should be getting PAID for these writings, insights, but no, hardly they ever get read ( i have  considerable observation of Google analytics of each post), but especially MORE SINCE, these additional paragraphs have been ADDED to the original post. May my lost words be a dedication/ homage to the lost Pitrus/ Pitras/ spirits/ wraiths/ homeless wandering souls across limbo,  in this Pitra Paksha period. I should lament NOT, that human eyes may NOT hover over these heartfelt ramblings, but I should take comfort, that slightly in-human eyes MAY do hover over them, ;)! Good, i didn't go for dinner/ diversion! This Preta Paksha Chaturdashi, fresh after 5 month Kalsarp is a rare astrological transit to experience and narrate. And as mortals, burdened/ with astrological knowledge of such transits, It becomes mine personal duty to lay testimony to the emotions and spirit of this passing phase. Lest, some another mortal eyes wandering over these lines, can empathize with similar sentiments, that they might be experiencing! And thereby understand the overwhelming influence of passing astro transits! (I do feel temporarily possessed by the spirit & narrative style of my eternally favourit Edgar Allan Poe). My homage to them, mighty spirits, whose dark styles do continue to inspire and move us, across the Aeons!

Jupiter 01: Morning picnic at Jahapanah forest

"Bejor Nakot Khor"- Assamese idiom meaning: Biggest Wart on nose of healer/ shaman himself). Under topic "Jupiter" I narrate effects of remedial measures for malefic/ debilitated Jupiter in my OWN chart. First diagnosed by late astrologer Biren Bora of Jorhat in 1999. Finally addressed, under initiative of my aunt Bula Khuri (Bobita Phukan), from May 2013..


2nd Sep, 2013. One thing I have begun realizing, about the importance of Karmic planets in our  horoscope is that the effects of remedial measures towards debilitated malefic,planets never come in a straightforward or scheduled way. They come in tangential forms, unofficial offshoots, by-lanes, or detours. But helping us perceive and undergo expereicnes that we NEVER experienced before..
 
Yesterday 1st Sep, Sunday, went for a Sunday morning walk with our neighbours Sanjay Diwakar and wife Veena, and their daughter Nelise for the first time ever in our life to our neighbouring Jahanpanah Forest. Surprised, we found a VAST jungle, sitting spat in the middle of Urban Delhi, in the bang middle of G.K. II. We took coffee in flasks, sandwiches and had a unusual Sunday morning. Finally we sat amidst a vast green filed below a Gazebo, and felt like we're in some faraway resort. Whereas, we were merely 15 mins away from our place. All these past EIGHT YEARS, the Jahapanah Forest lay there, but this is the first time we ever landed up  to have a picnic there. Round and around, around the circle of our daily groove for eight years. But never having the briefest crack in the wall to just land upon such a unexpected paradise of adjoining Jahapanah forst. Praise the Lord Vishnu!

I acknowledge the initiative of aunt Bula Khuri, and the diagnosis of Late Astro Biren Bora just few months before he passed away on July 2013. And also, earlier ignored advice of Astro Visti Larsen, Astro Hitesh Deka, Astro Upadhaya, Astro Malabya Deka. For making me understand the Karmic significance of debilitated planets

Jupiter 00: Fourteen Years Later

Negative planets in our birth-chart indicate Karmic Debts, which overrules all positive potentials. I was repeatedly suggested remedies for debilitated Jupiter by astrologers Upadhyay, Hitesh Deka, Visti Larsen, Malabya Deka, & others. But only on insistence of my aunt Bula Khuri (Bobita Phukan), & through advice of Late astrologer Biren Bora of Jorhat, I began my remedies, from May 2013. Herein I explore effects of this karmic cleansing...

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Since a long time, a lot of senior astrologers, and my fellow astrological colleagues like Prasanta Barman, Astrologer Upadhyay, astrologer Hitesh Deka, and astrologer Visti Larsen  had been suggesting that the debilitated planets in one's horoscope are the MOST important Karmic consideration. As they are the prison wardens in control of our current existence. And although the effects of  debilitated or malefic, never come in the direct purview of our EGO perspective, they remain at the edges, draining us completely from our full potential. We never come to realise the full potential of our horoscope unless we fulfil the KARMIC DEBTS of our Debiliated/ Malefic planets.   And blindly, because of misguidance, an because of my own training/ education as an Vaastu/ astrology consultant, I had completely ignored the considerations of the debilitated planets in my own chart. I thought, lets NOT bother with what I don't have, they DON'T matter.  Let's do with what I HAVE. But after the forceful insistence of my "forever- oracle" aunt Bula Khuri ( Bobita Phukan), who had always throughout helped me unravel many mystical truths, hidden astrological discoveries in life (check my other blogs), I finally surrendered my ego, and as she suggested, consulted her Astrologer Biren Bora of my paternal hometown Jorhat. His remedial measure over the phone sounded too casual, general, and ordinary. To pray to Tara and appease the effects of my debilitated Jupiter. Earlier Astro Visti Larsen, astro Hitesh Deka, and astro Upadhyay had suggested the same and I HAD done some half hearted remedial measures. But after repeated insistence of my "Oracle" aunt Bula, I did the Hom / Havan/ sacred fire at Kamakhya, to Ma Tara, as suggested by Biren Bora, and I did this, more as an obligation to my aunt. 

Few days, after the ritual in my hometwon Guwahati, I was scrummaging through some papers in my cupboard. I found a piece of paper: an astrological prescription from Astro Biren Bora dated 1999. On it, he had suggested Tara Hom/ Havan worhsip at Kamakhya. FOURTEEN YEARS EARLIER I had been, advised by the same person, the same remedy, but had somehow completely ignored, overlooked it! And it was now, that I had to go to the SAME person 14 years LATER, get the same advice, and finally began the remedial therapies!! The sheer irony of it!! Finally, I realized the Hidden Karmic DEBTS that we owed the debilitated planets in our chart! We might go round and around for uncountable years, even DECADES, on the Credits of our positive, benefic planets! But finally, we had to come to terms with our debilitated planets and FULFIL our pending Karmic obligations towards them. Praise the Lord for helping me understand this!!
LAST THREE MONTHS UPDATE (Jun, July, Aug)
"You never know what you're missing unless you actually experience it". In the past three months I have seen some rather unexpected effects results trickling down in my life. What I previously considered peripheral matters, mundane issues, tangential topics, BUT now, I've understood, that these "minor" things have unpronounced major effects on our lives, the direction of our growth and evolution. I've begun to comprehend the Karmic dynamics of debilitated planets upon the daily drama of our existence. 
One major/ minor thing I could notice is that a sense of well being, relaxation, has slowly come in. Otherwise, before my brain was in constant tension 24 Hours, in stranglehold with anxieties, obsessions, complex vexations ROUND THE CLOCK! Now, my over heated, and almost burnt out brain has gradually begun finding more pauses, phases of  contemplative relaxation. The permanent HYPER-ness of my personality, has magically reduced, DESPITE the prevailing circumstances and events. I could not have ever imagined that, internally, I could be so much more chilled out! Praise the Lord Vishnu!!
Also, as an unprecedented behaviour, I somehow began the process of slowly dumping, donating, distributing all of my old clothes. And gradually replacing it by a colour scheme more suitable and harmonious to my horoscope. Colour schemes more suited to my personae, my own planetary vibrations. And as a result of this, an overall sense of comfort, relaxation, has descended upon my daily life. Previously I used to feel permanently awkward, uneasy, self conscious. But now, strangely, I've become least self conscious and oblivious to the self. All I can say's that: What a Relief!!

Another MAJOR change, I have observed, is regarding the advice to  my astro/ vaastu clients. Now, I find myself emphasizing more on REMEDIAL measures for debilitated planets. Whereas earlier, I used to focus more on gemstones, astro stones, to amplify weak benefic planets. Now, my remedies are more in direction of charity, donations, mantras on specific days, for debilitated, malefic planets. I've come to realise the significance and value of Karmic clearance regarding debilitated planets. Praise the Lord Vishnu!

I acknowledge the initiative of aunt Bula Khuri, and the diagnosis of Late Astro Biren Bora just few months before he passed away on July 2013. And also, earlier ignored advice of Astro Visti Larsen, Astro Hitesh Deka, Astro Upadhaya, Astro Malabya Deka. For making me understand the Karmic significance of debilitated planets

Karmic Fusion: Odd + Odd= Even!!

23rd Aug, 2013. Many times, we are stuck with something in life, that doesn't seem to make ANY sense. Say, a piece of  obsolete HARDWARE, a redundant odd thing. But, yet somehow, we remain stuck with it. Like a vestigial organ connected to our body. An ODD appendage! Then Suddenly, one day, we meet someone, who has the other component, the other side of the story: an obsolete, ODD, redundant SOFTWARE. Having the SAME complaints, same issues like US!One that perfectly complements our odd HARDWARE!  SHAZAM!! Karmic Fusion happens! SUDDENLY, obsolete HARDWARE+ obsolete SOFTWARE=  creates some Totally Unexpected results! That's what Karmic Connection is ALL about! Harmonic Synchronicity! Two totally ODD/ Imbalanced / Incomplete things COMING together to CREATE: Perfect Sense!!

Karma and Astrology

By judging the planets in your horoscope, you can understand a LOT about Karmic design in your life:
Karmic credits are indicated by
1) The  Upachaya Houses: 3rd, 6th, 10th and 11th houses. Even malefics here indicated CREDITS.
2) Benefic, strong, well placed planets in other houses especially 4th, 5th, 9th, 11th.
Karmic Debts are indicated by:
1) The Dushtana Houses: 6th, 8th and 12th houses. Even benefics here can indicate DEBTS
2) Malefic, weak, debilitated planets in other houses especially 2nd, and 7th.

Generally, in my experience, the Dushtana house, i.e, 6th, 8th, 12th houses are more a source of pain, irritation, headache for us. They are the highest areas of Karmic Debts for us. And represent our weaknesses, setbacks, obstacles, etc. And ultimately, it's these very Karmic factors that helps shape our lives.

New delhi: my Karmic Land

3rd August, Saturday night, 2013. Been two weeks now, since my return to Delhi. After a long spell in hometwon Guwahati. AND one thing I noticed, that, whatever else, Delhi IS my Karma Land. My Place of Karmic connections. For these past two weeks, despite everything else, Karmic events with different people was in great occurence! No doubt, that now my main profession lying in the domain of the Occult, namely being a Vastu consultant, Astro counselor, the possibility of such spiritual, Karmic connections definitely increase. BUT in this case, I'm talking OUTSIDE the purview of professional schedule. Random, meetings, incidents, circumstances, hold SO MUCH KARMIC WEIGHT for me in Delhi. Be it in terms of Karmic liabilities. i've discussed already earlier, my Karmic revelations about my own life. But the implications of all these Karmic Connections can be MOST felt in Delhi, for me!

I recollect the Karmic tenets of the Falun Gong order, which I've been fortunate to be acquainted in the past few years. and, even those of Daimuku Buddhist Chanting, which our Landlord Sunil, is a fervent practitioner of. Tenets which state when a considerable amount of prarabdh / pending Karma has been extinguished from our souls/ bodies, spiritual ascendancy becomes a natural Process for us.
THE EVIDENCE of this I found in my recent trip to hometwon guwahati. Previously unnoticed newer doors were opened to me with effortless ease. And both these school of thoughts, Falun Gong and Daimuku Buddhist Chanting STATE specifically THAT the INNER MENTAL STATE  IS the MOST EXALTED PROCESS for Karmic cleansing. an Inner mental state which encourages qualitiesd like Tolerance, Forbearance,  Benevolence, Gratitude, Detachment to RESULTS. Though I cant say, that i've become a great Sage, or wise one, but YES, this Karmic cleansing process has enabled me to see these hidden, underlying Karmic Designs, of our mundane life MUCH sharper, better, and clearer. Hail to That! Hail to my Karma Land of Delhi. for teaching me quite some Forbearance, Humility, Tolreance.

Reading my journals, previous to my marriage, and BEFORE having moved to Delhi, in 2006, I found in myself, quite a high DOSE of spiritual arrogance, Judgemental attitudes, Hidden conceit, stubbornness, and Naive Vanity. The HARD knocks of Delhi has helped me to open my eyes to Karmic stuff, previously highly ignored and looked over. I aint saying, i'm a Great Sage today. BUT you should've met me previously before delhi. I WAS quite an arrogant prick. Albeit in disguise. Cheers to the furnace of Delhi, in making me more Chilled out!! Cheers to THAT..  ;)

Saturn Retro 2013: 72- Paris Reversed 05

24th June, Monday, 2013. More or less, it has become the conclusion of this long Annual Saturn Retrograde 2013, even though Saturn will turn directional only in 1st week of July. The effects of Saturn Retrograde, commence 15 days before the actual Retrograde begins/ ends. This will be my 72nd and concluding post on Annual Saturn Retrograde 2013.

As i was describing in the previous 4 posts, this years final week of Ultra Retro 2013, i.e, Monday 17th Jun- 23rd Jun Sunday was exact inverse of the final week of Ultra Retro 2009, Monday, 27th April- Sunday, 2nd May, the EXACT period of my Paris Trip, 2009. On Saturday evening, 22nd Jun, 2013, I had to suddenly leave FOR Shillong to attend to a half completed Vastu assignment.

On 2nd May, 2009, evening, we left FROM Paris. The entire Sunday, of 3rd May, 2009, was a day of coming down, into the Void/ Furnace/ Gravitas of Delhi. Whereas, exactly Sunday, 23rd Jun, 2013, represented an ESCAPE/ ANTI GRAVITY from the Furnace of Guwahati Heat Wave, into the Haven of Un-planned Shillong. The client took me to the Cathedral in the evening, and to Shillong Cafe where a live band was playing. I actually felt like being in Europe. DAY FOR EXACT REVERSAL of the almost Penultimate Day of Saturn Retrograde 2009 and 2013.

Monday, 4th May, 2009 represented such an dark Gravitas/ Return to Ground zero and descending. There is such an acute entry in my journal of 2009 about the return to the Summer horror/ Void of then New Delhi's hottest summer. Especially from the sudden contrast of a magical, sudden week in Paris. Whereas TODAY, Monday, 24th Jun, 2013 wherein I had to extend my trip in Shillong, a sudden Haven, because of the availability of workmen pertaining to the site!!

BASICALLY, Saturn Retrograde works!! Especially, in my case. I dont know WHAT the coming days bring BUT  want to officially conclude this long Series on Saturn Retro 2013. Henceforth, I may later update under Post heading ""Harvests 2103, that is, any result arising from the sacrifices/ redemptions partaken during Annual Saturn Retro, 2013. Jai Shanidev!! Whew!

Saturn Retro 2013: 71- Paris Reversed 04

22nd June, Saturday, 2:02 am. What a late night for blogging update. But then, this is when i found access to time/ net/ space. in previous 4 posts i wrote how this year, 2013's Saturn Retrograde's final 'Ultra Retro' has become inverse of Paris Trip, 2009. Some of the gentle readers have already complained about me repeating myself. But thats what EXACTLY a Saturn ruled person does, during Saturn Retrograde, especially its final/ concluding Ultra Retro phase.

As opposed to Wednesday, 29th April, 2009, when I had spent the entire day in magnifique Louvre museum, mine 19th Jun, Wednesday, 2013, INVERSELY, I spent in our office space, painting our bathroom with live action colours, splattering colour all over me.

Ultra Retro 2009, this day was spent Consuming/ absorbing/ observing most famous, historical, Globally recognised, acclaimed, art of the Louvre museum. And INVERSELY, this Ultra Retro 2013, was spent in creating personal OUTput of personal, narrow, artistic expression, albeit, in a obscure corner of our office bathroom.

Later, afternoon, spent day in Brahmaputra resort with Santu and Lovita, who had taken me out for lunch. It was the SAME place, we had all visited after our wedding ceremony in Nov 2005. During Saturn Retro 2005. Suddenly, i WAS transported back in time. Had never revisited it during all Guwahati trips, since then. But only NOW, during ultra retro 2013.

Thursday, 30th April, 2009, I spent in roaming Paris, in it's wild romantic beauty. Though, no journal entries remain. i seem to have been Completely Bedazzled by the beauty of Paris. Too stunned, and starstruck, even to have made some basic journal entries!! (For one, who has always kept such extensive records of an ordinary day). Thursday, 20th June, 2013, was spent selecting and hauling tiles in hot, humid, tropical noon from a dark warehouse for the completion of our office's extension room for my sisters office space. After a long and leisurely sojourn at hometown, it was a day of acute physical labour, heat, dehydration, etc. Evening, i went far for a task to khura's place, but later which proved fallow/ barren. Late evening, i just dissipated mine energies, after failed and laborious endeavors of the day. Later cousin Ahir and i visited a sick friend Aren, who was down with typhoid. Her usual bustling place of countless people, felt like Rue de Morgue, with its pallid gloom, sickness in the air. Perfect contradictory atmosphere of Saturn Retrograde. The silence was deafening. None of her usual party friends were around. Only us, two random friends, sitting in equivalent gloomy silence.

On 1st May, 2009, being May Day in Paris, the streets were crowded with unimaginable processions, events, performances, rallies, demonstrations, picnics, and unimaginable scene. I shot a long montage shot of a group of female drummers in yellow-jackets in a unimaginable traveling rhythm. it was the most unimaginable LIVE high of my life, until then. A shot that I have edited and re-edited a thousand times after that. INVERSELY, Today, Friday, 21st June, 2013, was spent in extreme bustle of jumpstarting my sisters media extension, in our fathers office. Getting priest, pooja, foodstuff, this and that. Later, i had accidentally taken the house keys with me, severely locking out all from home, and getting severely rebuked for the same.

But today, after an entire day of sourness, letdowns, late evening, suddenly inexplicably met up with two old friends and was in an uncharacteristic elated mood.  INVERSELY, by evening of 1st May, 2009, must have felt despondent, and gloomy in Paris. As the magic of Mayday in Paris, was HIGH, but only one more day remained in Paris, the next day, Saturday!!

It's NECCESARY for me to write about Ultra Retro/ Saturn Retro days in such detail, because Saturn Retrograde, demands it. Such detailed archival comparisons. When saturn Retro, finally ends, I can (hopefully) get back to motion/ movement. Normalcy.

 Such complicated, obssessive, comparisons are natural and necessary  during Saturn Retrograde. Especially, during Ultra Retro.

Saturn Retro 2013: 70- Paris Reversed 03

18^th June, Tuesday, as I described in the previous three  posts, this years Saturn Retro 2013’s final week (17^th Jun, Monday- 23^rd Jun, Sunday) is/ has/ become/ becoming  a SYMMETRICAL  INVERSE/ REVERSE of my Paris Trip of Saturn Retro 2009, (27^th April, Monday- 3^rd May, Sunday).  A kind of mandatory, (in) voluntary, REVERSAL to counteract years of previous  transgressions during Saturn Retro. AND, a REVERSAL, which is also helping unravel  two different orders/ entities of contemporary thought, namely the fantasmatic Object/ Desire of Paris Trip 2009, and the VOID/ Black hole of Hometown Guwahati trip of 2013. Saturn Retrograde is where it’s all happening. Vedic Scholars were tripping on OUR so called cutting edge, contemporary, cutting edge TIME LOOP.. long back in the ancient times!!

Reversals between:  Monday, 27^th April, 2009- Monday , 17^th Jun, 2013

Monday, 27^th April, 2009, early morning we set out of home for Paris. Entire noon time was spent in international airport, Immigration form, process. By noon, our flight had taken off. Meanwhile, just before taking off, Sangeeta, bought a packet of Assam Tea from International airport, for her colleagues in Paris. This act was a Virtual of the Virtual of the Virtual. Being from Assam, buying Tea not from Assam, nor Delhi local market, BUT the outgoing counter of the International airport!! In contrast, Monday 17^th June, was a complete INVERSE/ REVERSE. Woke late from friend Adil’s office, had to come home in searing heat, because of the construction work, going on at home and office simultaneously. Later  walked in searing heat of Guwhati’s heat spell, noon, went with painters to buy additional paints for Vastu correction of our kitchen and eastern area, a LONG PENDING task, since yesteryears!  

Whereas, in Monday, Retro 2009, I was suspended in Unfolding Anti Gravity, Virtual Reality, and strangely felt ONE amidst unknown strangers in a strange land. Conversely, on Monday Retro 2013, I was in the heart of Gravitas, the mud PIT deep inside home ground. There was no electricity, water, lift, etc, at home. The sweltering heat, the heart of the Pan- asian dystopia! Later, had gone with Lueit to our fellow hostelite/ architect Parthajeet Sharma’s book launch, “Smart Phones, Dumb People”. Where I was remarked upon by some acquaintances, Senitinels of Assamese Culture” on my shabby hair, clothes, un-smart appearance. Which pierced my ego/ heart, because I’m NOT the casual attitude, that I recklessly portray. Despite my current Saturn Retro bearded, scrawny, and shabby look. But good timing, being Saturn Ultra Retro, especially Paris reverse. 

In  afternoon of Monday 27^th April, 09, a stranger, visitor from south Africa helped me out regarding some queries regarding Paris. Whereas, now here in  2013, got insult, tenga, from forever known faces. DIRECT Symmetrical Inverse!!

In Ultra Retro 2009, during this exact time, Monday evening, had entered  Paris, in rainy, divine weather, a magical suspended journey from airport to Champs De Elysees. The Anti Gravity, magic, mystery in the air was too much. Cool Europe, Parisian magic, at its sublime best. During Later, evening, I went with Bitu to khuras place for some astro corrections. Soaking in sweat, in the sweltering heat, we had rum like fools. And, were almost collapsing in the “gela Gorom”.  Later, Bitu and I came down to Hridoys place. In the sweltering heat, we drank and talked of metaphysics. I poured water over myself, didn’t dry, wear clothes, just to stay alive. The Gravitas, in the air was too much. Tropical Asia, at its humid worst.

Further, later into the night I went to my young friend Mon’s place at Usha Court, Zoo Tiniali. His apartment/ building carries a distinct residue of the political turbulence of early Assam. Ask any resident, they can testify about the dark phase, upheaval, political turbulence of Assam, and this building’s centre stage in it.  Every time, I come here and stay overnight, I get swallowed by dreams and stories of past political backwaters. Far backwaters, stories of unimaginable darkness, chaos, mayhem, violence, rupture. And the residual energy of this building, which had many ceremonies performed here to purify it’s quarters, still carries a tangential residue of an unique nature. It’s yellow, gloomy, gothic,  and carries a strange spidery feeling.  

A perfect inverse of the interiors of Hotel California, in Champs’ De Elysses, in front of the Arch De Triumph, at the HEART of Paris, where we stayed in, in our Paris Trip, Ultra Retro, 2009. Comparing Monday 27th April, ’09, our first night in Hotel California, (the strangest of names ever), I felt odd, out of place, jittery by the European texture of things. But conversely, Monday, 17^th Jun, ’13, I felt STRANGELY welcome into familiar Gravitas, residual Heaviness,  of Mons place at Usha court. Slipping into a familiar, dark, swamp, a yellow, gothic, pool, it had meaning, infamous roots in dark terror. BUT yet, purged, comforting, darkness incarnate. Saturnine. The perfect abode for RE-ENTRY during  Ultra Retro!

On Monday, 27th April ’2009, I was staying in the heart of  the Fantasmatic Object/ Simulation, staying in a “Hotel California” in Champs De Elysses, Paris. However, yesterday Monday, hometown Retro ’13, Conversely, I was stationed in the Void/ gravitas of Usha Court. In 2009, the fantsmatic object, too bright to bear, too much to unwind. And in 2013, despite it’s universally recognized terror, the Void was welcoming, soothing, helping one unwind from the blazing inferno of the Solar inferno, outside. A brief, DARK, shady, and COMFORING haunt!!

Tuesday, 28^th April, 2009- Tuesday , 18^th Jun, 2013

Tuesday, 28^th April, 2009, was the first morning, when I set out in Paris, alone, after Sangeeta had left for her official work. For a person, who hardly does any travelling alone, nor exploration, adventure, it was a remarkable, lifetime event. Exploring Paris, all on my own, without knowing the language, a brand new unimaginable adventure. An unimaginable, MAGICAL Voyage. Suspended in Unimaginable ANTI GRAVITY.  In contrast, Tuesday 18^th June, 2013, was a complete INVERSE/ REVERSE. Woke late at Mon’s place, late, outside the world with its busy traffic, chaotic roads, rolled by, I felt like The One Who Got Off The Ride!! Left behind by the world, long behind, far backwaters! Woke up to the ever familiar NIGHTMARISH Void, of HaNGOVER,  of the Horror of the Real. Had to come home in searing heat, because of the construction work, going on at home and office simultaneously. House was in a grand mess, wall cut, AC pipes, repair, renovation in full bloom. The nightmare of Reality. Dust, chaos, exposed veines/ arteries of the house. Mother narrating NIGHTMARISH stories of water, electricity, domestic problems. Nightmaruish realities. Suddenly , I was DEEP into the dark, humid , intestines, the suffocating BELLY of the BEAST!! 

 Tuesday, 28^th April, 2009, the whole day, I roamed around, until my feet pained, in the magical city of Paris. Exploring, discovering. Conversely, Tuesday 18^th June, 2013, was a complete INVERSE/ REVERSE, dealing with domestic problems, broken pipes, leakages, dust, viscera of Home, which I normally deal with, always roaming about, in Hometown Guwahati. Later, after sisters room AC got installed, collapsed, lazed for endless hours, uncharacteristically AT HOME, WHOLE DAY in Inexplicable REST/ INERTIA, but explainable only by it’s Symmetric Inverse:  

 Tuesday, 28^th April, 2009, a day where I was in unwarranted movement, motion, exploring the Virgin territory of Paris. Getting over my fears, getting to know Paris, in its sublime magic. FRESH, NEW, SUBLIME, MAGIC in contrast to Tuesday 18^th June, OLD HORRORS RESURRECTED. NOW, as I write out this final para, completeing it’s final instalment in Lueits office, and after a spell of HOT/ COLD contrasts, (AC/ outside, again and again) am having a hideous cold, in this  Hot weather.

I can definitely testify regarding my emotional state during Evening in Paris, Tuesday, 28^th April, 2009, that after a spell of Diverse contrasts, I must have finally dissolved it into a understanding/ Integrity/ universal Fundament/ an Organic whole about the City I had been formerly, so apprehensive about. Conversely, Tuesday 18^th June, 2013, was a complete NIGHTMARE, in my ever familiar hometown, a day of diverse contrasts, which find me, in Hot/ Cold nightmarish unease. Neurasentic irritation. 

 Evening in Paris, Tuesday, 28^th April, 2009, found me in  SATISFACTION at having dealt well with a Brand New World, so well. Whereas, evening, Tuesday 18^th June, 2013, in hometown finds me so ruffled, askew, jittery, loose, COME Undone at the seams, at having handled OLD HORRORS RESURRECTED, so badly.  

“Tomorrow”, Wednesday, 29^th April, 2009, was the Day, when I went and visited and stayed the whole day at the Louvre Museum. I wonder what, TOMORROW, Wednesday, 19^th June, 2013, in it’s DEMONIC INVERSE, will serve on my plate! I rightfully Shudder!! Signing off, for now.. !

Saturn Retro 2013, 69- Paris Reversed

15^th Jun, Saturday,  2013. Today’s  the 15^th day, of the three week Ultra Retro phase. The concluding phase of Annual Saturn Retro, 2013. In the previous post I wrote in detail, about how this year’s Ultra Retro phase has become a reversal of Ultra Retro 2009. A year when I went to Paris, along with my wife on her official tour, despite the death of my then astro guru T.N. Sarma. An unimaginable digression for a Saturnine creature. During the very first day of Ultra Retro 2009, 13^th April, the news of death of my then astro guru T.N Sarma, came from hometown Guwahati. He was a major foundation/ cornerstone in ALL our decisions. Suddenly the ground beneath my feet vanished. Despite the utter shock, fallout, two weeks later, I still went along with my wife to Paris on her official tour. The most fantastic UN-Real trip ever! Especially, during the peak  Retro energies of Ultra Retro 2009. It was the my fourth consecutive year of involuntary violation of Annual Saturn Retrograde.  And the Paris Trip, 2009, completely sealed the Karmic programme. And hence, from 2009 itself, there has been a huge incidence of Karmic repayment, atonement.

PARIS REVERSED: contrasts between Retro 2009 and Retro 2013

I wrote in the last post, how in this Ultra Retro 2013 ( 1^st- 21^st Jun), lingering on, and overstaying in Guwahati hometown because of various obligations, postponing the return trip to Delhi has brought me a lot of criticism/ flak. 

Whereas, in Ultra Retro 2009, diametrically/ INVERSELY, the Paris trip was all about an universally recognised/ approved/ endorsed/ movement. There was a tremendous universal glamour associated with the Paris trip. It was perceived by ALL as a tremendous NEW PROGRESSION.
  But this Ultra Retro 2013, my delayed return to Delhi, hanging around in my hometown is being acutely  unrecognised/ disapproved/ misunderstood action. It has been perceived by ALL as a tremendous stagnation, backward REGRESSION.

 The Paris Trip of  Ultra Retro 2009, can be termed as involuntary/ passive/ PROGRESSION/ BREAK-through. And, this years Ultra Retro 2013, my current, overdelayed stay in hometown Guwahati trip can be termed as involuntary/ passive/ REGRESSION/ BREAK-down!! 

In the days following up to the Paris Trip, I was in great apprehension, a tremendous build up, supported and endorsed by all. LOGICALLY, rationally, why was I being apprehensive? It was a GREAT adventure ahead!! Conversely, in these days following up to my return trip to Delhi, I am in great apprehension, a tremendous breakdown, criticised and negated by all. LOGICALLY, rationally, why was I being apprehensive? I was ONLY returning to my own place!   

In Ultra Retro 2009, as the days of my Paris trip approached closer, my body was involuntarily being filled with Positive/ electrical/ Buzz/ a kind of nervous torpor. A kind of Tachycardia, accelerated beating of the heart. However, CONVERSELY, this year  Ultra Retro 2013, as the days of my return to Delhi trip approaches closer, my body is involuntarily SLOWING down. As if, being DRAINED of all Adrenalin, and being filled with Sedatives/ heaviness/ drowsiness.. a kind of Primordial lethargy! A kind of Bradycardia, deccelerated beating, slow down of the heart.  

During Ultra Retro 2009, at this moment I was in involuntary ANTI-GRAVITY. And during Retro 2013, at this moment I am in involuntary GRAVITY. Literally, as Im writing this text in Lueits back office, in their GRAVITY Activity Centre!! 

 Such are the signposts/ signs, I seek from Lord Saturn, in this long winding serpentine journey of Saturn Retrograde.  

In Ultra Retro 2009, as the days approached, a grand adventure, the lottery ticket of a great and unimaginable vacation approached. And, in UR 2013, as the days approach for my return to Delhi, an unimaginable feeling of dread, unease, queasiness seems to possess myself. As if, I’m losing my centre in some unimaginable way!  

Ultra Retro was all melodrama about a Positivist/ Forward/ Rapture/ Breakthrough movement. Today,  Ultra Retro 2013, the melodrama is all about Return/ Negation/ Relapse/ Regression/ Residue. Existential questions about  Void/ foundation/ roots/ base.

  
In 2009, it was all about Paris, a fantasmatic OBJECT of DESIRE! And this year, 2013, is about return to Delhi, the VOID of  EXILE. 


Ultra Retro 2009 was about flight, rapture, Take off, voyage. And Ultra Retro 2013 has been about Gravity, rupture, landing, return to home AFTER a long Voyage. The hangover of the day after!! The crunching jaws of inescapable Destiny/ Reality, Dis- Real Truth.
 As opposed to the Roman Holiday, magical trip, Un-Real, Sublime, fleeting virtuality of the Paris Trip! 

 In UR 2009, it was about Manifestation of my latent DESIRE towards things exotic/ phoren/ abroad/ bidesh. The longing for the fascinating OTHER, coming true.  But, this year UR 2013, it ‘s ALL about Manifestation of nightmares, secret FEARS!!  The sheer  underlying FEAR of the VOID. The Desert of the Real. Nightmarish visceral Dis-Reailty. After the pastures of heaven, a nightmarish return to Reailty, a Return to Exile! 


 I think, the major flaw of the Paris Trip, was that it was severely premature, far before its allotted time. And outlandish magnum opus, out of time and place. Whereas, in these past few days of UR 2013, I have seen blossoming, arrival of things, Over-ripe, long delayed, postponed, in their becoming. Things arriving, FAR too LATE, severely delayed in their manifestation.

METAPHYSICS of SATURN RETROGRADE

In the previous post, I wrote how I had been been intensely sharing/ discussing reading Slavoj Zizek’s “Interrogating The Real”, in great detail, with my friend Egg-head. Especially the concept of “Negation of the Negation”. Fascinating thing is, the comparison between Ultra Retro 2009/ Paris Trip and Ultra Retro 2013/ Hometown Visit perfectly YIELDS the contrast between Structuralism/ the fantastic object/ Positivism and the Void/ Negation/ Deconstruction!!   

Compulsory Initial Failure as defined by Lacan
The “great mistake” of the Paris trip, 2009, is the Compulsory Initial Failure as defined by Lacan. It was NECCESARY for my eventual understanding Saturn/ Saturn retrograde/ my version of reality!! 

In Ultra Retro 2009, IF the fantasmatic event of the Virtual/ Unreal Paris trip had NOT happened, during the contradictory phase of Saturn Retro, I could have never experienced the subsequent UNRAVELLING. About the sheer contradiction of Solar/ Logocentric/ Positivist/ Phallocentric thought. The DOWNSide of Rationalism!! Especially for the Saturnine/ Saturn ruled person!!!!  For within the the fantasmatic object/ Retrograde ITSELF is concealed, the very underlying seed of it’s OWN contradiction! The seed of the Great Great Void. For later, as Saturn turned directional, the fantasmatic object/ Ultimate desire of PARIS conveniently NEGATED itself and collapsed upon itself, becoming a Great Void. And harvesting a vast blossoming of Harsh underlying reality. Spawning Harvests  of the Dis-Real, EVER SINCE.  

This year (un) consciously, am I attempting Negation of the Negation?? Creating a forced Event,  to counteract the Primal mistake of the Paris Trip, 2009.

CONCLUSION: my role..

 I feel, that my philosophical disposition, contemplative ardour, thinking attitude is ONE that is COMPLETELY fuelled by Saturn Retrograde energies. Somehow, I WASN’T supposed to be this thinking, great metaphysical contemplator. It’s MERELY the Saturnine factor/ function in RETROGRADE, that is THE causation of all these introspections/ contemplations! That finds me naturally, sitting in the poise of Rodin’s statue “the Thinker”. Because, after four years (2010-13) of counteracting the digressions of  Saturn Retro, years 2006- 09, I have purged myself of the usual unpleasantries of redemption. And have carried this Retrograde exercise into the domains of movement which divulges the philosophical opposition between Logocentric/ Positivism- versus Negation/ Deconstruction. The introspective/ inward mood, motion, I’m currently in, is directly in Contrast with the mood, motion, disposition during Ultra Retro 2009. Wherein, I was in the grasp of a Great and Fantasmatic object of the Paris Trip! Whereas this Ultra Retro 2013, has been about  INERTIA and regression. A RETROACTIVE movement. What Zizek calls Negation of the Negation. The INVERSE of Objective/ Positivist/ Rationalist thought! ESPECIALLY for those Saturn ruled, THIS IS the time to lay backwards and contemplate. Brood endlessly upon subjective complexities. Engage/ address all internal Conflicts/ Contradictions. Dwell in the serpentine backwaters of.. Negation of Negation!