Log 35: karmic reflections

From the earlier post, I continue the effects, feedbacks i recieve from the universe/ environment after my renaming this to Karmic Purgation. First, I get a very on the dot accurate daily forecast from astrology.com, which is usually pretty vague for me, but which has been eerily accurate for my wife for a very long time. Just see the paradox: wife of an astro guy getting an very accurate daily forecast from a mechanical auto update from a popular astrology site, but thats how it is!! My astro forecast read:

Hi Adim! Here is your Daily Cosmic Calendar for Saturday, February 8

Every so often the universe enjoys taking a siesta in its seeming perpetual bombardment of humanity and terra firma with challenging and discordant solar, lunar and planetary alignments. When this kind of 24-hour time-period occurs, it is wise to reflect on recent changes in your life, review the errors and mistakes of the past, and count your blessings. In addition, today's Moon sign -- Gemini -- carries more significance than usual due to the scarcity of other celestial aspects and because the lunar orb only makes a mentally-energizing, 60-degree liaison with Uranus (5:57AM). Thus, reading, writing and research are reinforced. How ironic that since yesterday I have been taking notes from Deleuzes' Anti- Oedipus in collaboration for my friend MM and later from Jean Baudrillard's essays Transparencey of Evil, Blowback of Duality etc. And yestenight till 3 am, was taking physical notes (pen and paper) from the great work of Deconstruction: Jacques Derrida's "On Grammatology". Later, a friend Ritika Jawa wrote to me on facebook message: "Ur blog on karmic purging is interesting. Is it not based on our planetary movements when we go through such cleansing process, I feel its like soul activates few things based on its evolution in the current cycle to rid of the karmic baggage which is stored in our bodies.". suddenly she was saying something so appropriate to Karmic Purgation. I replied: "yes, planetary transits are mere mechanishms by undergoing which we PURGE / get rid of the karmic baggage that is stored in our bodies...thats why karmic purging is most important!!!".  Later friend Mousumi Banikya, posted a heartfelt piece on her life, in her blog: Mousumis blog piece: as-life-goes-on . I added both Ritika and Mousumi to my karmic programmLooked like there were other karmic reflections in my immediate  environment after initiating this karmic purgation blog. The high itch to change it's title to something like Karmic Plumbing, Karmic investigations, Karmic chronicles/ musings/ or something along those lines still persists. But let this stay for now. The effects of this karmic purgation have been quite fruitful. In their consequential chains of events. I was actually beginning to whine at this slow phase, but reading the astro update, and the inputs from the two friends above, i feel i am in karmic sync! have a nice weekend!

Log 18: Karmic Purging in action

I'm happy to report that after changing the blog yesternight, name/ path/ mission statement to Karmic Purging, I'm seeing some better changes in my immediate environment. Suddenly things are flowing with better chi'. Such is the vital importance of Karmic purgation/ catharsis/ cleansing in out lives. It allows fresh new energy to flow into our lives. And also, there was a huge pressure on me throughout the entire day, yesterday before I finally got it it right. But today, considerably, with all the planetary positions, etc notwithstanding, suddenly the relaxed feel is very prevalent.
Today, I was supposed to go to my ayurdevic doctor at Chandiwala estate, because past few days, my whole body was burning, eyes vision blurry, urination almost burning, a pain sensation around the kidneys. But today, on it's own I'm feeling much better and relaxed. Thanks to the practice of Karmic Purgation. Thank God, that out of the three blogs, this one: adimphukan.blogspot.in, having my very name in the blog address, is connected and dedicated to the process and reflections of Karmic Purging. Also, as I write this, I feel good, because somewhere inside, my body feels that this was what i am/ is/ should supposed to talk, communicate, write about! I am feeling drowsy, and do you know what I connect drowsiness with (from karmic standpoint): this panel below...

That image is from my childhood comic book Kamandi, the Last Boy on Earth, issue no. 55. I had to do a lot of  surfing to get that image. That was the first time I learnt the term "Drowsy" at 6- 7 years. An image grafted onto my mind since childhood, but retroactively, I relate this image approximately  to the Karmic Purgation technique. People talk about power, electricity, shakti, like in case of the. But purged off the positive ions, oxidized electricity, extra buzz, we feel more relaxed, chilled out. The Vortex Beast on the left hand side panel is flaming full on, with electrical  storm energy. But on the right hand side panel, purged off it's energy, it feels relaxed.( Or thats how I feel it should have been.) Generally, excess positive energy, in forms of gemstones, power Yantras, etc, give people more power, energy, excitement, high. But they can make you a mutated and grotesque Vortex beast. But through Karmic Purging, removing all that buzz/ high/ electricity/ shakti/ build up/ high can make you feel quite peaceful and drowsy. Like the Vortex beast chilling on the left...
Amen to Karmic purging!

Log 17: Returning to Karmic Purging

Like I had predicted, merely three posts back, the changing of name and objective of this blog and posts have consequently unleashed a backlash of undesirable effects and consequences upon my life, and immediate environment. Something, that I could have done without, in my long and winding journey of karmic unraveling. Luckily, because of the process of blogging, these embarrassing posts, in evidence of post modern aspirations would sink downwards, hopefully into relative oblivion, after some passage of time. Maybe I'm predestined to spew out karmic musings on these posts. Endlessly and forever! This blog might be form of Karmic catharsis, where the blog process is NOT progressive, but subtractive, reductive, cathartic in some form. Since, Sun- Mercury conjunction is in my 12th house of loss, so writing has to be some sort of subtraction, as in deconstruction.

Purging Karmic Issues= making room for Evolution/ Growth
During the past few days, (check my past few logs), was while transforming this blog completely into a post modern, deconstructive narrative, called Retroactive Blogs was to invite quite a horrific backlash from the Karmic, nightmarish  aspect of it. Divesting this blog of the supernatural, karmic, daeomnic components not only negates the interesting deconstructive, rhizomatic aspects BUT also immediately accelerates such demonic, nightmarish experiences in my own daily life. Immediately negating ALL intellectual breathing space for venturing into Deconstruction, rhizome, and post modern Retroactive perspectives. For me, to move away, to maintain polite Objective, scientific distance from the Karmic visceral standpoint, is to invite the utmost backlash, and wrath of these very Nightmarish Karmic forces. WHEREAS, delving deeply into the nightmarish, karmic, visceral aspect of things often yields some great Deconstructive pearls. WHEREAS, delving deeply, and directly into the nightmarish, karmic aspect of things spawns strange rhizomes of Deconstruction, in their own unpredictable, random style, back into my life.

Log 16: Definitely Maybe

I should have known earlier, that this blog renaming to "Retroactive Logs' would compulsorily, and necessarily counteract itself. BECAUSE that's what Retroactive motion does. Contradict, reverse, even itself. That's why I end changing blog names, statements of purpose, goals, mission statements 1000 times, etc. Since I began this Retroactive Logs, lots of things have begun haphazard in my life. Lots of clear cut boundaries around me, dissolving askew. AND because I changed this blog from a Karmic, Occult, astrological phenomenon to this relatively "Post Modern" terminology, in Retroaction, lots of things have reversed, inversed for me. Suddenly, astrological stuff, mantras, hymns, worship of planets have made a forceful return into my life. With a vengeance, indeed. I feel, blogging on Retroaction, has made my stars retrograde massively. But, dear faithful reader, especially my friend MM, with whom I collaborated, or rather who urged me to initiate this tangent of Retroaction, i shall continue in/ on the contradiction of this Retroactive path/ journey.

From the retroactive, deconstructive perspective, one compulsorily essential phenomenon of writing is that it is self defeating. More so, because I have Sun, Mercury in Virgo, my 12th house. See, I told you that, trying to be too post modern, would retroactively, bring forth the perspectives, heavily into astrological readings! So, now, knowing that the blogging process, is self negating, counteractive, contradictory, I still must then, take this into account and continue/ persevere to write! without having any topic, event, objective to write about, but merely the Retroactive phenomenon, for/ in/ by itself! I know for the fact, that readership of such a process, would be close to zero! As, who could understand, be interested, in retroactive fundas/ ponderings for/ in/ by itself. I should have created a porn blog, or erotic stories, that would have really rocked!! But then, there's so much of it around, about! And because of the freedom of the internet, it has moved onto another level! AND, another thing, am I technologically spoiled? Am I merely blogging, BECAUSE the facility, avenue, medium of blogging exists, and NOT because I have something profound and important to say? Is this the flip side of freedom? Do I have too much spare time on my hands? Am I definitely wasting my time on such stupid self pondering, examinations and analyses? Was this Retroactive initiative, too much than I asked for??

Maybe, I Defintely think so... Hear this song on youtube:  Definitely Maybe- Jeff Beck

Another bizarre thing! Jeff Beck's wailing guitar work of song Defintely Maybe by , on retroactive hindsight, directly reflects the qualities of my other two blogs: Serpentine AND Saturnine. TALK about contradictions/ retroactions..!!

Log 15: Retroactive process of blogging

One majorly relieving thing about blogging under the Retroactive banner is that one can, rather I can,  blog about movements, flows, processes. As opposed to previously blogging about "things", incidents, "happenings", events. Under the banner of the retroactive which is also synonymous with reflection/ retrospection, I can simply turn back on myself, fall inwards and spontaneously begin blogging. I don't need a thing/ topic, I need what Deleuze calls Hecceities, movements, flows, magnitudes of motion. And the effortless ease with which words themselves type themselves out on the  keyboard, is a natural side effect of  the retroactive process. On the 2nd last post "Log 13: Negation of Negation" the retroactive process had already begun, but I had simply not woken up to comprehend/ realise that. The manner in which I was effortlessly oozing thoughts out, was by product of the Retroactive process, but it's only now, on retroactive hindsight, that I begin to comprehend it. I had merely labelled it wrongly as "Negation of Negation" because of the necessary initial mis-recognition that the retroactive process compulsorily involves.

Today, I was re-updating the Page header "Retroactive Intro". I had written about the retroactive journey of my blogging process. But one major contradictory and retroactive element of blogging, which I'm being able to re-alise now, on retroactive hindsight, is that, blogging has been always been for me, much more than an outlet for voicing my  personal expression. in fact, it has been a cathartic, relieving,  mechanism for venting out my excess thoughts, oozing out my excess brain activity. And in a retroactive manner, it's been a medium for reading aloud my own excess thoughts. And furthermore, retroactively, blogging/ writing is a kind of feedback mechanism, which helps me to divorce myself from my excess thoughts. Voila!! I have been always (whenever I have not been trying to project on others with my "great knowledge", cerebral acumen), blogging for my own self. Blogging as a reflective mechanism, a retroactive process, for working my inner angst out. And in the process, making me somewhat lighter! Cheerio'/ Oreo to the Retroactive! Have a great weekend!

Log 14: Retro: nostaligias of the future

31st Jan, 2014, 11:56 pm, the midnight hour, witchin' hour. Two and a half hours left for Venus to end it's past 40 days of retrograde motion, and become directional at 2:30 am. How utterly embarrassing that, NOT one day has passed before the last post: "Log 13: Negation of Negation begins" and in the very next post, today it ends, with the ever accompanied blog name change, etc, etc. As I change this blog to it's latest avatar "Retroactive Logs". As I write this post, i am feeling an overly strog sense of Deja Vu, a clear image projected before me, where I'm changing the blog name once again! Such is the necessary repetition, return, recurrence, and self- contradiction of the retroactive journey, the retroactive process.

It is such a fantastic ( and necessary) paradox, that I who have such a repressed/ suppressed, obsessive, and subconscious, almost carnal fetish for the linear, directional, forward and structural, am writing this blog on retroactive motion. But such itself is the necessary paradox contradiction of the retroactive phenomenon, that, somewhere a champion and authority of Retroactive phenomenon, is churning out vast outputs and analysis on structuralism, linearity, and continuity.
And here, today as I "commence'" or maybe, I have forgotten in my long blogging journey, maybe I have recommenced or have returned to the retroactive topic. I symbolically, obsessively, return, regress to my favourite obsessive Michael Jackson tracks, of/ from last two year past: Break of Dawn and Butterflies. Round and roundabout i go, returning to former histories, disguised as the future.

Today, I HAVE to mention the significance of this posts title 'nostalgia of the future". In 1999, when I was overstaying illegally in Film school campus, i was dating a student of camera. Those days, I was outstandingly arrogant of my newfound intellectual, cerebral recognitions across the film students as a serious thinker. The girl i was dating, was on the other, grounded, emotional, and though quite weird, very real, a flesh and blood woman. Those days i had a penchant for the airy, fairy, alluring, ice maidens  (poor masochistic sucker that I was). One day while we were smoking on the evening time, by the cool summer grass of a sultry evening, she discussed with me, a song idea for an upcoming camera exercise. she wanted me to compose music based on her idea: "nostalgia of the future". I asked her what it meant. she said 'one day, in the future, your'e gonna look back, and miss this moment. Getting all nostalgic about it. and i want you to realise that in your music". I laughed at her, told her she should stick to her camera techniques, and leave higher thought to people like us. The song was never composed, the song video never made. today, i want this post to be a tribute to my future nostalgia, when i would look back at my current prick-liness, my current stupidity. i cannot comprehend it now,obviously, but through this 'nostalgia of the future', this retroactive movement, hope  I have some futuristic retrospection of my current time. And become 5 percent better than what i am.. today, when my wife, immobilized by her corn for the past 4 months, dances above her waist, to the flesh and blood music of Carmen McRae, I'm trying to retroactively, look back nostalgically through time, and appreciate the flesh and blood women she is. Even, i remain cereberal, cold, distant and analytical..

Cheers to the Retroactive. camera woman from the past, who saw through time into the future! Cheers to the Nostalgia Of The Future..

Log 13: Negation of Negation begins

29th Jan, 2014, Wednesday, 5:04 pm. I feel queasy, uneasy, disoriented, and outside all comfort zones, after re-christening this name of blog to "Negation of Negation", because suddenly I'm outside of the defined structures of a particular, topical category. Like astrology, Karma, spirituality, art, whatever! NOW, I've no choice but to write about life itself under the great banner of Hegelian negation of Negation, the triadic, threefold dialectical movement of life. Now, this blog would fall in the category of ... er.. blogging! Blogging for the sake of  blogging. Unchained from the categorical restraint of fixed topics, like my other two blogs Serpentine and Saturnine, this third, blog, is about.. blogging itself! Hey, the paradoxical, contradictory phenomenon of Hegelian/ Zizekian Negation of Negation is already happening, here!! haha! Even, in my almost 20 years, albeit uninterrupted long practice of journal writing, I had a topic to write about: the DAILY events of life. What happened from morning to night under a particular date. After a while, it obviously bogged me down. The painstaking responsibility of it!! As I begin Negation on Negation, however, I don't know, WHAT I'm writing about. Where, this haphazard,  rhizomatic random narrations would take me. For the first time, blogging has become better than even jotting down thoughts on paper. Don't have to think, write, format, edit. Just random hammering on the keyboard, and watch the words spell out. Since yesterday, dietary imbalance is giving me great headaches. I had a long leftover fish fry, which was freezing in the deep freeze, microwaved and had with.. tea of all things. Hope I don't get food poisoning, or digestive breakdown, which is a common occurrence with me. I feel some release happening, because of random thoughts spurting out and imprinting themselves on the white space of the monitor.. on their own. A kind of reflexive, retroactive motion. But one, which came after a long period of extremely volumnious and formal writing parctice. in fact, i just can discontinue this page, and continue later, simply changing the para, and simply underling the time of entry! whhopsa daisy! So, this is what blogging feels like.. ( I began "bloggin" in Jun, 2007)..

Log 12: Illness due to extreme eating

Last few days, I had been down with acute indigestion, and resultant gas, breathlessness, congestion, an ever repeating routine since childhood. But a pattern which has increasingly shown me that it is but a process/ medium for my own Karmic Cleansing, and evolution. I had been accompanying my wife, the entire past week, at her site finishing, wrap up, at Krispy Kreme store at Select Citywalk Mall, Saket. And late night, moved across the road to indulge in my favorite kebab stall at Hauz Rani village, right across the mall. My argument was that I wanted some real Mardo Wali Khana ( He Man Food), as opposed to the food offered at the Mall. Then in the Over Machismo of my gait, overate too many Kebabas, which were hastily almost half cooked over charcoal, due to the long queue,  and Icould feel a familiar sense of indigestion creep up, shortly after. By the time I returned, I felt that I had overdone it. Next two days was over hectic, as wife finished her work at the Mall, and it opened to great crowds, and I too was caught up in some music composition for a corporate film. Ultimately, the undigested food, late nights, sleeplessness, super hectic tension, culminated in a total system crash down, finally on Sunday!

From Sunday night, the now long forgotten phenomenon, of indigestion, breathlessness, horror, resurrected full bloom. Later, I was browsing through an issue of "Osho Times" handed from a friend, and my eyes fell on an article " Eat Totally, Stop at The Right Time"! It fell like a slap on my face! What could have been an artcile on food, which I would have grossly ignored, was now staring at my face in full bloom. Zapped, in my indigestion and breathlessness, I began to read over it in detail. Some excerpts:
"The body never goes into extremes, the mind goes to extremes. When there is no mind, there is no extreme". True! It was my so called, "Real Mardo Wali Khana/ He Man/ Man of the soil" attitude, which made me grossly overeat at the Kebab Stall, and body crashdown!I could have a normal bite, but no, I had to go over the edge, to prove my Son of the Earth, machismo! As, Aldous Huxley correctly said "Road to excess leads to wisdom". And this article in Osho times was exactly pointing out the exact thing: That, we SHOULD do things in our own natural, balanced, moderate pace, and NOT OVERDO things!! 
Most of the times, we screw up because of our own extreme attitude... a lesson I had to learn from eating excess..!! ;)

Jupiter 02: Removing of the invisble Veil

Negative planets in our birth-chart indicate Karmic Debts, which overrules all positive potentials. I was repeatedly suggested remedies for debilitated Jupiter by astrologers Upadhyay, Hitesh Deka, Visti Larsen, Malabya Deka, & others. But only on insistence of my aunt Bula Khuri (Bobita Phukan), & through advice of Late astrologer Biren Bora of Jorhat, I began my remedies, from May 2013. Herein I explore effects of this karmic cleansing...

I have been meaning to write extensively on the results of  therapies for debilitated Jupiter, but there has been way too much activity in these past few months. Strangely, my previous existence prior to Jupiter therapies was SO IDYLLIC for years and endless years!! But suddenly, diverse activities have seem to become the order of the day! Though I am not judging, my previous existence, prior to Jupiter therapies, was very much laden in theories, contemplation, and retrospection. But suddenly, all these theoretical aspects slowly began transforming into practical realities, concrete  preoccupation. All this while, some strange, unsaid barrier seemed to have separated me from the lifeblood of human, mortal existence! Post Jupiter therapies, this virtual barrier seems to have been considerably removed. The resilient yet invisible veil, which had for so long, kept me Far And Away from Vital preoccupations of the mortal experience, seems to have considerably withdrawn!

Suddenly, I found myself performing in Kaffeine at Hauz khas village, after a long Hiatus in music. Somehow I had been so hesitant to play, but after a few swigs of Miller Lite, there I was. knocking relentlessly on the ebony and the ivory, and even crooning few ad lib numbers for the evening! Trust me, its FAR better to actually perform than to think endlessly and THEORIZING about performances! Its a relief actually! Also, on facebook, I found some highly cereberal people in two groups: the Gilles Deleuze group and the Fraternitas Saturni, both filled with substantial, cereberal, deep, insightful people who began giving some invaluable feedback to my astrological observations and post modern idealizations! Enriching my own research endeavor! Cheers to That!

I wrap up with my eternal gratitude to all named and unnamed guides, with special mention to my aunt Bula Khuri, for helping me discover the impact of negative planets on our lives..

Kalsarp With Rahu Sun Saturn: 17 Oct- 16 Nov

Previously, I had written in detail in my Serpentine blog, about the prevailing Kalsarp Yog from 28 Apr to 2nd Oct, 2013. But I had completely overlooked the final and most acute  phase in this Kalsarp Yoga. The final conclusion, the Grand Chorus, to this six month long Kalsarp Yog saga! Namely, Rahu, Sun, Saturn conjunction as the final Dhamaka/ Punch of  this Kalsarp season: from  17 Oct- 16 Nov!

And as usual, I always find out Crucial transits, at the Fag End, Tail end of it!! Always a super, delayed tubelight! I should have noticed the ominous sign, as on 18th Oct, on the very second day, of this transit, my mother in laws bag was snatched while we were traveling in auto rickshaw from the train station to the hotel, as we landed in Amritsar, to visit the Golden Temple. But as I go, I do find out stuff, but somewhat, way too late! This  one month period finds the Sun entering Libra and combusting the already critical Saturn Rahu combination of Kalsarp Yog! So it's Sun, Mercury, Saturn, Rahu, exploding, burning together in Libra, the most debilitated sign for the Sun! What an overall, all around, explosive combination.

And its characteristic of the six month long Kalsarp Yog to go out with a stormy bang, even though technically Venus exits Kalsarp on 2nd Oct, itself. And yes, from that day itself I found some great movements, but, I had completely overlooked the grand stormy chorus of this phase namely Sun itself entering Libra and combusting the Rahu Saturn combination. Creating a grand Chaos of high scales. Read it as upheaval, revolution, chaos, upsurge. And a very hybrid mixture: as the struggle, strife filled, contradictory combination of Sun + Saturn + Rahu will pull issues and things in all directions! Don't complain if your "head feels like bursting into a million pieces" (just like my friend Pratisha wrote on facebook). And THIS combination is BAD overally! Be you ruled by Sun, or Saturn, light or darkness!

In fact every year, when the Sun transits the sign where Saturn is located, it represents a conflict between the Irresistible Force (Sun) and the Immovable Object (Saturn)  ! But this year Sun is transiting the house where BOTH Saturn and Rahu are located together, it represents a cataclysmic conflict, an acute and unusually Karmic churning period! in form of Kalsarp Yog.

 

Live Update, 7th Nov: Sun Saturn Conjunction

The exact dates for Sun to conjunct Saturn was yesterday, 6th Nov, around 3pm at 20' 30" in Libra! So the full force, impact of this phase was centered around November: 4th Mon, 5th Tues, 6th Wed, and finally today 7th Thursday!! Where 6th Wed and 7th Thursday was the CENTRAL impact point of this. I could actually feel, witness, experience this impact as the people we were supposed to deliver our product got their Studio burnt down around this EXACT period! And some major catastrophes all around. As I write this, 6:30 pm, 7th Nov, Thursday evening, I can somewhat feel the confrontation/ impact of this phase passing over! But the impact/ explosion has been technically and Karmically  building up since LONG as Sun approached Saturn, finaly to impact, combust, and finally cross over it! I personally saw A LOT OCCUR since Monday, 4th Nov itself. But it was long pending Karmic Build up which got released today!! In the classic style of Sun Saturn cataclysmic combustion. So precisely.. to the day and date!!

For those of us in Faculty High, or CBSE, we had this lesson "In Celebration of Being Alive" by E.R. Braithwaite, where the author concludes: "We DO not become better because we are suffering, but, we become better, because we HAVE suffered..". I totally agree, as I rather mostly learn from difficult situations, circumstances on HIND sight! in Retrospect perspective. And I HAVE learnt/ earnt a Lot from the COMBUSTION/ horror of the past few days! At least, i feel a lot LIGHTER cos' I went through such a gruelling Karmic expurgation phase! what I want to say is... Hai Ramma!!!

UTILITY of such Karmic phases: to clear Karmic Junk!!

In this blog Karmic Logs you often see me write in detail about various Karmic phases, which are usually percieved as negative phases. BUT what most people overlook is that such Karmic phases are Windows of Opportunity for us to clear our own pending karmas. the metaphysical meta-dynamics of such Planetary phases are GREAT OPPORTUNITIES to remove our Pending negative elements and MAKE ROOM for fresh new energy or fresh Prana, or fresh Chi to FLOW INTO our lives!! Usually, we are so full of SHIT.. oops read that as Pending negative Karma, or Pending negative issues, that we FAIL TO MAKE ROOM for fresh new energies/ and opportunities to flow into our lives! Everybody keeps on harping about  Positivity and all that BUT first we MUST make room in our OWN Lives, by clearing Karmic Junk, and making SPACE for new energy to flow in!!

8th Nov: Contradiction/ Conflict= Karmic Cleaning

Yesternight, I had an outburst to a Long Pending/ Brewing conflict with a childhood friend. He has Sun + Sat + Ketu in his Natal chart, a very unholy combination. So he must have suddenly drawn a LOT of energy from this  passing transit, the current unholy/ contradictory/ conflicting combination of Sun + Saturn + Rahu in Libra. Yesternight, I could feel the CENTRAL impact of this horrific transit. Emotional betrayal, turbulence, heart burn, heart ache, as long churning bitter venom was suddenly, but not unexpectedly spewed in my face! I could physically experience the unholy combination of Sun + Sat + Rahu in Libra, my ascendant sign, ruling over my Self/ Ego/ Identity. This childhood best friend had been part and parcel of my identity/ identification, But after yesternights Venomous interaction, NO LONGER!

Later, shaken and stirred by this Long Pending horrific confrontation, I changed the name/ title  of this Blog from Karmic Logs to  Karmic Cleaning, because that's what this current transit has shaped my focus UPON: Contradiction/ Conflict= Karmic Cleansing!! That's WHY we go through negative planetary phase, to help us Clean Up  Our own Pending Negative Karma!! Negative Planetary Transits are Natures IDEAL time for Removal/ Subtraction of Pending Negative Energy!!

Right now, I definitely feel very bad/ sad/ drained (obviously, with Sun + saturn + Rahu, in Libra, my very ascendant sign) but i KNOW that once this Unholy combination ends, with Sun moving out of Libra, 8 days later, I can breathe a bit more easier, after having such LONG Pending horrendous negative energy/ horrendous internal conflict having been Removed from my Life!! 

Likein our  CBSE, english textbook lesson "In Celebration of Being Alive" by E.R. Braithwaite, where the author concludes: "We DO not become better because we are suffering, but, we become better, because we HAVE suffered..". I would rephrase.. "because we HAVE Been Cleansed"!! Amen to that!

13th Nov: Filtering Process

These past five days I was defintely participating in a LOT of Karmic cleansing  and untangling process. Wherein I helped others, much outside the domains of my professional scope, to help them untangle, sort out, clear out their minds and clear up Karmic Junk. As the Sun gradually moved away from Saturn at 20 degrees Libra, slowly the combustion, heartburn, of the nefarious Sun-Saturn conjunction reduced. and in this very reduction is the passage of relief, Karmic release. I am so glad that I could participate in Karmic resolution of so many others. BECAUSE from the Karmic perspective as we sow for OTHERS, we finally reap OURSELVES! In the words of Richard Bach in Illusions : Every problem has a Gift for the seeker. we seek problems because we need their Gifts!! I am grateful to Ma Tara, Lord Vishnu, to help me understand the utility and Cleansing POWER of such difficult Karmic planetary Transits! These phases give us SO much opportunity to Remove/ subtract our Long Pending Karmic Debts, karmic Toxins. I'm gals that even though I had some relief and release, I was NOT cavorting around, and spontaneously and naturally occupied Karmic dis-entanglements, Karmic cleansing process in this tough planetary transit of Sun + Saturn + Rahu in Libra of past one month, 17th Oct - 16th Nov.
Another thing, I would like to be grateful about is that by the live narration of my own tough emotional experience I was able to guide two three of my close friends through a similar transit that they were undergoing thru. Common human sharing helps us understand THAT it's NOT happening to us Alone! And that can make so much difference!I am thankful for the feedback, ineteraction of members of my Facebook group: Adims Astro Zoo, for their feedback that made it a Live Karmic dynamic interactive, process!!

6: 38 pm, evening, 13th Nov: DEAD CALM: Today the  entire day was  a massive slump. A contrasting stretch from the dramatic, melodramatic, rise and fall, swell and ebb of the this over dramati cprevailing  transit. Feels so strange to experience this faltliner all of a sudden. For once,  a relatively calm period almost feels tinged with unease and dread. Like the Nicole Kidman, Billy Zane chiller movie, Dead Calm. There definitely IS some signs of relief, BUT, not complete relief, as 3 more days yet to go for Sun to leave it's month long transit in Libra. Many people today in boxed me in facebook today about their personal conflicts. I used the slump of the moment, UTILISED the uneasy Dead Calm of this period, to respond with great depth about their inetrnal issues, dillemmas, opinion. This current sense of Calmness is a gnawing feeling like a description in one of Edgar Allan Poe's stories. Laced, and tinged with dread and Unease. The perfect astrological consequence of -HOT/ burning Sun + cool/ dark Saturn + and moist/ cloudy mysterious Rahu!!:P

16th Nov, Saturday: wrap up
I feel quite tired after a long day to be writing this last update to this post. And definitely, a sense of winding up, and relief, release.Especially towards the end of this phase, the conflicts, and confusions amplified to an acute degree! I'm glad I use thie Karmic Phase properly. To purge pending, latent Karma. AND guiding as many people as possible. In the FINAL CLIMAX, today I helped friend Susmit remove his long pending facial cyst thru surgery at a local hospital. I had to watch up close, the blood, mess, gore, blood spurting like geysers, of his procedure on his cheek, and was waying with head spinning. The lady doc, and nurse told me to sit down. Lest i faint from the overload. What an embarrasment. But after a while I regained my composure and helped Susmit crawl through the procedure! LaterI had  to suddenly visit Gurgaon for some auspicious work. And back home, a long pending cheque, was there when I reached home. Thanks Lord Vishnu for the end of this horrific phase. RIGHT on the dot! Cheers and blessings to everyone!!
Breathe Again- Toni Braxton