Log 33: my first film After Paris

As I've found repeatedly before, the main thing in my own life, and for many many others on the path of spiritual evolution, is, the process of Karmic Clearing. All good things happen as a by product of this process of Karmic Clearing. You just need to focus on this process of clearing your negative Karmic debts. Clear up your karmic gaarbage. Surprising things, happen as a by product. For me, is the process of completion of my first length video film. On my own life, on exile, redemption, hangover, and recovery. Thank you to all those involved in this magical journey. Thank you universe. Keep on at it. The process of Karmic Clearing. you never know what YOU might uncover. Within yourself..
My gratitude to the universe and this invaluable process of Karmic Clearing...

For more about the film, click link: Camerapraxis Link: About-my-film-After-Paris-Adim-Phukan/

Log 32: By products of Karmic Clearing

Just updated the blog description to..
"It's only when we resolve and Clear the nightmarish problems and monstrous obstacles of our pending karmic issues, that the universe creates an window of opportunity, for us to express our true inner potential. Adim Phukan"

My own personal process of Karmic Clearing has been a ongoing one. Whenever some major karma gets eliminated, I have often come across some resolution, relief, realization or reward as a by product. So I have realized that, all we need is to focus on various techniques, processes and methods of Karmic Clearing. The universe creates everything else, as a by product of this ongoing Karmic process. However, if we choose to ignore our karmic debts, our best efforts, best talents can totally remain enchained by the tentacles of pending karmic issues. It's ONLY when we resolve and Clear these pending Karmic issues, does the universe grant us resolution, relief, realization, reward as a natural by product

Zizek says that the Universal is connected to the particular in a styrange way. I'm DIRECTLY experiencing this live, right now, as having to change the Main/ UNIVERSAL heading/ description of this Blog  page, after the few spontaneous lines above in this PARTICULAR post. 

" Just focus on resolving the nightmarish problems and Clearing the monstrous obstacles of your pending karmic issues. Realization, resolution and rewards are natural by products of this Karmic Clearing process. Adim Phukan"
 
Proving that everything, all intellectual realisations, philosophies, spiritual growths, energy insights, evolution, growth, prosperity are natural by products of this Karmic Clearing process. Every Breath We Take Every Move we make are by Products of this Karmic Clearing process.. 

Log 31: Why karmic clearing?

Updated the page header above titled "Why karmic Clearing?", copy pasting below..
Why karmic clearing? beacuse its only when we clear our Karmic bindings, do we create room for opportunity for expressing the radiance of our personal spirit !!

Why Karmic Clearing?
In Vedic thought, we're on a ongoing Karmic journey across many lifetimes. The challenges and problems of our current life represents particular Karmic repayments, obligations, our soul has chosen to address and resolve in this particular lifetime. Vedic astrology can give us great insights into these karmic equations, and pending karmic issues. It enables us to identify the particular nature of our Karmic debts, and gives us method and remedies for their resolution. Over the years, I have found my own astrological  journey, naturally gravitate towards on the various processes of Karmic Clearing. More and more, I find myself focusing on various methods and  processes and therapies, which enable us to reduce our pending karmic debts. Because, I strongly feel, especially after repeated personal experiences in my own life, that, unless we resolve our pending karmic issues and debts, all the gifts, talents, of our soul lie completely useless and buried. Because  these unresolved pending karmic issues actually follow us across many lifetimes. And, it's ONLY when we clear them do we create room within ourselves, to express our inner talents and individual potential. As they say in the Buddhist thought, "Ultimately, we do everything for our own self, own soul..".  I offer my heartfelt gratitude to the benevolent and compassionate souls, who have shared their invaluable insights about Karmic Clearing, with me in my own personal karmic journey. Thanks!!!!

Some universal Karmic Clearing methods
Below, I'm sharing some Karmic Clearing methods, that work universally for everybody, beyond the particulars of  one's individual specific horoscope...

1) Acknowledging the Karmic Law
Whenever something bad happens to us, we say "Why me?", and curse everyone and everything all around, left right and center. But we forget, that it's our OWN pending karmic debts, unresolved issues, which are now, manifesting before us. Acknowledging, understanding and reminding us of this fundamental Karmic reality is an highly effective way for Karmic Clearing. Even though, the causes are often invisible to us, having the faith in invisible Karmic Law, and acknowledging karmic responsibility for their effects, helps clears our pending negative Karma.

2) Forbearance towards Negativity
In the teachings of Falun Gong, I've found an invaluable insight. Whenever, someone uses aggression, hostility, violation, anger in any any form upon you, he takes your negative karmic energies upon himself. And showers you with his own positive karmic credits, karmic blessings.  However, if we reciprocate with equal aggression, we return the karmic credits and blessings back to the sender and pull back our own negative karmic energy back to our self. Whenever, we face hostility, confrontation, ridicule, humiliation, we should try to remind ourselves, that it has come to us ONLY because of our own pending karmic debts. And is now, providing us an unique window for Karmic Clearing. Maybe, that's what Martin Luther King meant, when he said, "Unearned suffering is redemptive"!!


3) Breaking the Pattern of Negative emotions
Negative emotions like Envy, Jealousy, Cribbing, Arrogance, Ingratitude and Pride create a lot of negative karmic energy in our life. They represent a pattern that we have carried with ourselves across many lifetimes. We should break these Karmic pattern by trying to avoid these emotions, as far as possible. Envy, Jealousy, and Cribbing is effectively overcome by  acknowledging Karmic Responsibility for our current personal circumstances. And, Arrogance, Ingratitude and Pride is effectively overcome by reminding ourself to express gratitude to the universe for the many gifts and enjoyments that we recieve.

4) Karmic repayment in Small Installments ( Rista' Khan-dan )
Sometimes due to high karmic debts, there may be catastrophic repayment/ retribution looming ahead of us. But, if we can practice regular repayment in small but very frequent installments, we can convert the mountain of looming catastrophe, to smaller and manageable installments. Example, in case of those with Mars related accident horoscopes, who have the potential for a big accidental injury. This can be reduced by many frequent smaller nicks, cuts, bruises, that frequent the persons life, instead on one massive accidental catastrophe. Such frequent but minor mishaps can help keep process of karmic repayment, karmic clearing, in balance. Regular and minor repetitive negative experiences clears considerable pending Karmic debts from our life.

Log 30: Values of Karmic Clearing

Recently i have somewhat digressed from my astrological observations and have been focussing more and more upon Karmic Clearing. Why? More regularly that you pursue the process of Karmic Clearing, more room is created within for movement, and energy within. And we create more space within ourselves to receive the gifts of the universe. In my experience the highest and most efficient Karmic Cleansing occurs from our state of mind. I list below some mental insights that can help you accelerate the process of Karmic Clearing..

One of the easiest ways to absolve pending negative Karma is by expressing and acknowledging thanks and gratitude for the gifts that we receive and often take for granted all around us.
Secondly, is through Karmic awareness, realising and understanding the Truth, that our current state of existence is the result of our own past karmas. We are bearing the fruits of our own known/ unknown actions.
Thirdly, make a conscious effort to avoid emotions like Envy, Jealousy, Cribbing, Arrogance and Pride in our lives. Once we replace these five demons with inner karmic awareness and gratitude, the process of Karmic cleaning accelerates. the universe understand our faith in the divine Karmic Law, and it helps us in mysterious ways and means to speed up our Karmic cleansing process and our inner evolution.
Fourthly, any kind of regular meditation can help relax ourselves, and remove Karmic Toxins from within us.

Cheers and thanx for reading! May the universe show you the way!

Log 29: Karmic clearing creates space for gifts

Today, after a long period of Karmic Clearing for past two weeks, as described in the previous post, I'm feeling a lot lighter. Suddenly, I modified the title and name for the nth time. So the importance of process of Karmic Clearing is stated. Even for reaching clarity, talking about the divine process, Karmic Clearing has to occur. From the lowest microbe to the highest being of light, it's the process of Karmic Clearing connecting one and all. Clear your karmic garbage, create space within, move on...

Log 28: saturn Retrograde 2014 energies

I was supposed to write this post in my other Saturnine blog. But here I am blogging in karmic unravelling. Why? maybe because the period of Saturn Retrograde is a period for karmic unravelling for me. Already, I wrote in detail about Saturn retrograde 2014, here: saturn retro post : schedule: 4th-mar-21st-july But like last year's 72 posts on Saturn retrograde 2013, on this very blog, (click link: search label /topic category= Saturn Retro 2013) I think I'll blog in this blog only. 

Check the graph above, the first sub phase, two weeks RED of, phase Yellow Coloured "increasing Retro" phase till 18th Feb, Tuesday is the most intense energy of Saturn retrograde, it's maximum change percentage wise, in  daily velocity increase. Hence the maximum acceleration. And hence maximum Force of retrograde energy experienced. The physics of astrological calculations. Hence for all Saturnine people it's time to introspect, retrospect, chill, muse. Drown as much possible in stillness, inertia, quietude. Here's the period for maximum Potential energy accumulation. So later when Saturn moves forward, we can go kinetic, and move forward too. 

This is when this blog got named too into Karmic Unraveling, two days back. Saturn retrograde is a highly karmic period for me, especially the first four weeks. A good time for pulling back as much as possible and most introspective karmic unraveling. "cheers" to that..

Log 27: bizzare multilayered events

I had always wanted to blog fast. Put down thoughts without thinking much. And after the previous post, Log 26: Journey of Karmic Unraveling, I think I can begin to do that. Somehow after the previous post I feel that, the more rapidly, that I expunge pending latent Karmic thoughts, especially in this annual 4.5 month long Saturn retrograde 2014, from 4th march to 21st July, more freedom it might bring me later on, when Saturn turns directional later. The process happens while I note down my thoughts, unraveling my inner karmic thoughts, different strands of observations etc.

Today, my wife got a Google Nexus 5, phone. Her earlier blackberry was dying out after merely two years of us. I remember, my own complaining post "crawl 02: caveman in future shock" after purchasing the most basic model of on my Samsung Galaxy, Star Pro android phone. I was cribbing so much then, but now with these basic features are working quite great guns for me. Lot of technoiphobic karma burnt out, especially in the overlayered event yesternight.

Bizzare multilayered events/ synchroncities...
Yesternight,  I had my first counselling session over Whats app. My friend Nandini was counselling me OVER whats app from U.S, while i was counselling a tearful, drunk, friend back home over the phone over NOT to  return to his ex girfriend, while simultaneous messaging replies on facebook to my astro group Adima Astro Zoo. Talk about technological adaptation, progress, since my cribbing post, then. And friend Nandini's karmic counselling was highly potent, I could feel blocks getting removed within me, because immediately, strangely, on neighboring foreigner girl (for the lack of a better word) strayed into our compound at 1:10 am dead of night screaming shouting as her dog was being attacked by our neighborhood stray dogs. Her brother had come to rescue, but no avail. Ultimately, I went down to help, and escorted her home, saving the day, becoming a hero at dead night, while simultaneously talking to my friend on the phone, continuing to counsel him. And later reverted to my counselor, Nandini on Whats app. All this while, my wife was playing Mahjong full on , at late night. To understand our recent mahjong fever significance,  read this post: Karmic Unravelling compared to Mahjong! Nandini was too zapped by all these layers, and ended up calling me.
Such richness of events, alters, miraculous coincidences happening all at once. Today morning, when I saw the picture on Mishti's facebook page, as described in detail in the previous post, it kind of made wondrous sense, retroactively. "You think you know What youre looking for.." up and until it actually finds you/ happens to you. Somehow a lot karmic layers were getting unraveled all at once.  WHAT has CHANGED is that instead of trying to be OBJECTIVE/ STRUCTURAL in my blogging narrative, I've changed tracks into the process/ journey/ events/ experiences/ BECOMINGS of the karmic unravelling process and it's many serpentine, multi layered threads, fabrics, designs, etc etc. This contnuous blogging on the go, expresses the superconductivity karmic unravelling process, even though currently not android enabled, helps give a much better picture of karmic reality/ synchronicity  in action. A dynamic living video shot, instead of a well framed structural photograph representing / DEAD / fossilzed/ Harrumphing conceptual theoretical narrative. 

Cheers to the Karmic unravelling process. Have a great weekend!

Log 26: journey of Karmic unraveling

Today while on Facebook, I was invited by our friend Mishti's  to like page Inner Katha Interventions. While browsing through her page, I found this haunting picture below on her wall.

This picture brought to light an issue that I had been since long festering within my self. The inner conflict of Being v.s. Becoming, Object v.s. Process, within me. In all my blogs, writings, posts, it's deconstruction, processes of becoming, that I preach and harp about, BUT yet within myself I have this huge fetish for Objects/ Objectivity/ Things/ Banners/ Labels/ Logos/ Structures/ Hierarchies, inside me. Yet, all the stuff that's been worth sharing so far, have been always been all about Events/ happenings/ experiences, and residues, by-products of an ongoing processes of karmic unraveling.

This picture on Mishti's facebook page, suddenly seemed to provide the breakthrough. I have been on a journey, a process of unraveling self discovery since long I can remember. And as far as my estimate goes, will continue to be on this journey, this highway of unraveling self discovery. By virtue of my being on this karmic journey, experiences would happen to me, insights would come to me, Objects would find me, and NOT the other way around. Hence objectively trying to search "things", define an open ended process has always invited a lacking, a failure, an  irritating itchiness within. All I should do, is pray attention, tribute and acknowledgement to this ongoing process of slef unraveling, karmic unraveling. Rest would come on it's own, on their own steam.

Same like, how this picture randomly.. found me!

Log 25: Experimenting with Names/ avatars

Like I described in a prior previous post, "Log 17: Returning to Karmic Purging", that changing the blog to something else invites an accelerated backlash from my pending Karmic issues. For this blogging process itself is an personal process for Karmic Clearing/ catharsis for me. Today, when I changed the blog title once again to Karmic Clearing, from it's previous avatar of  "Karmic Planets" which focussed on a highly astrological aspect of the Karmic process, I found an immediate response/ indication from the universe... ..

For the past quite a few days I have been having a lot of non vegetarian, oily, spicy, food, alcohol uninterruptedly, which is actually quite unusual for me. And as mentioned in the earlier post, I had to visit my Ayurvedic Doctor at Chandiwala ayurvedic dispensary for consultation, and her subsequent advice, medicines to control my usual ailment of stomach problems, heat, indigestion, etc. Even after, her treatment and techniques, somehow I was indulging full on, by circumstance and friendly invitations, still binging  on non vegetarian food and alcohol. Up and until yesternight, when I was invited unplanned to my friend Susmit's house for dinner, and binged on his divine Gumbo chicken and rum. While at his place, we watched Imtiaz Ali's earlier movie, Rockstar, on his laptop, and later played windows MahJong. It involved clearing out pairs of similar tokens, layer by layers. It always reminded me of Karmic Clearings. We were hooked ionto the game for hours. It was surely a sign for me, remidning me of the name Karmic Clearing..

Today, as soon as I uploaded the blog name / avatar changes to Karmic Clearing, a plate of overtly healthy, fibrous vegetables, full of anti oxidants, etc, was put before me. As my wife puts it, lot of veggies had piled up over the past few days, and had to be utilised before getting spoiled.  Eating this meal, felt immediately relaxing, and I could feel my stomach muscles, forehead, relax, after for a long time. The system was finding some relief from it's piling up overindulgence.  Updating this blog to Karmic Clearing found definitely me in the process of Clearing my piled up, pending stomach issues for now... ;)
Cheers to Karmic Clearing!

Log 24: Karmic Planets and therapies

Since last two days, I've been having fever, body heat, temperature, nose bleeds etc. My ayurvedic doctor who sits at Banarasidas Chandiwala estate, told me that, as usual, it was my increased body heat. As per her instructions, along with her medicines, I have mad a suji out of ghee and besan, which I'm mixing it with milk for reducing body heat. For my nose bleeds, she asked me to put raw coriander juice (kaccha dhaniya ras) through my nostrils. Also, I had kaccha haldi (raw tumeric) with milk for probable internal wounds, bleeding. Over the years, visiting her with my numerous ailments help me slowly improve without going to the hospital, doctor, unless for critical issues. Other than that, I always elect to suffer the inconveniences and manageable traumas of the body as a method to clear out pending Karmic debts.

I'm Libran ascendant, Tula Lagna, the Sun, my lord of the 11th house signifying Karmic credits/ gain sitting in my 12th house, signifying Karmic debts/ loss, indicates many widespread diseases and obstacles in the first half of my life. But as the Karmic debts are paid off, gradually, brings relief and improvement. Gradually, over time, as my lifetime of health and indigestion has begun improving, I have begun developing a demonic craving for all non vegetarian food, and alcohol. This is quite strange as generally people have such cravings in their hot blooded youth, and which,  due to an aging body, gradually diminish over time. For me, this reverse pattern has arisen because of debilitated Rahu in my 3rd house, of desire, expression, siblings. As we know, any malefic planet in Upachaya houses, (3rd, 6th, 10th, 11th houses from ascendant) gives gradual improvement and strengthening of that planets qualities over time. Rahu, as is known is the master of craving, desire, tamsic foods, alocholic beverages, sexuality, libido, consumerism, etc. Hence this symptom that I am experiencing. Now when I look back, the last 14 years, the very prime of my youth has been spent almost like a monk, an recluse, in pursuit of astrology, worship, prayers, solving problems, grappling with existence itself. Only now,  recently over time, Rahu in my 3rd house, has slowly begun coming alive.
 But like my ayurvedic doctor told, I should not overdo it, because of my newfound improved deigestion, and follow a balanced middle math, to go with the flow! cheers!

Log 23: Significance of Negative Planets

By this time, I'm having a bet on/ with myself, how long this current blog name, and description lasts. But since quite time now, I'm stopped backtracking and changing traces of my vacillating changes. Let these changes in the previous posts, remain a open testimony of my super restless / Khujli personae. Hmm, why I changed this time around to Negative Planets, is because suddenly I realized, that people experience highly visible results by undertaking therapies and remedies pertaining to the negative, debilitated, malefic planets in one's birth-chart. The blessings of the positive planets, are usually taken for granted, while the drawbacks, deficiencies, and challenges, of the Negative/ Malefic planets teach us karmic awareness, brings us redemption,  resolution and relief from our long pending Karmic Debts. In fact, I would go as far to say that knowing about the Karmic significance of the Negative/ Malefic planets is the highest goal and objective of Astrology. It is why, we have incarnated in this lifetime, in this particular birth.
In my own birth chart, comparisons between the Lagna Kundli and Navamsa chart, show that in past life I was a corrupt Guru/ priest/ God man. And in this life, have to make many am,ends in that direction to eliminate a lot of my Karmic curses. And this situation/ insight is easily divulged by comparing the position of Jupiter in both my Lagna Chart, and Navamsa. And it is , earlier ignore practice of remedies to debilitated/ malefic Jupiter that has brought me unforeseen positive signs and effects.

Log 22: The eternal process

Today finds me changing this blog name to Karmic Process, and rewriting the introduction page header again. Part of the Karmic Process. Purging, cleansing, modifying, changing, resolving. All different forms, procedures, and meta-dynamics of the Karmic Process. A process that goes on, eternally. Either very consciously, voluntarily, and actively. Or unconsciously, passively and involuntarily. Through deconstruction, interpretation, unraveling, and hundred other uncountable forms that I am yet to discover, or come across, this Karmic process goes on. But when you are conscious of this process, it happens much faster, smoother, and easier. But unconsciously, it is often quite nightmarish. Ghoulish even. My this very act, of  writing this blog on Karmic processes, is a highly personal Karmic Process itself. I write so fucking much! Why couldn't I simply make a book out of it? And become a great authority on the subject. Why blog!! Often when one post contradicts a previous one?? BECAUSE, this very act of this blog, is my own Karmic process. Where I am fated to share my own personal narratives and insights of the Karmic journey, the unfolding of the Karmic process. That's something that took me a billion years to realize.

I took a break from this post, and had the leftover spicy, mutton Chettinad from yesternight, when we had gone to Swagath restaurant, South Indian + seafood etc. It was tasting so awesome, one day later. When the spices had completely seeped and soaked into the fiber, and the oil had coagulated.  Because of Rahu in my third, I somehow find much higher, greater pleasures from stored, canned or leftover food. What, I want to say is that, it's a good sign. As opposed to last time, when I changed this blog into an avante garde, post modern thingy, and experienced a Karmic backlash. Today, by fine tuning the name/ decription of this blog to Karmic Process, I experienced a slice of pleasure,  uniqu, and specific to me. Rahu, leftover, oily, non veg food. A small unforeseen side effect of the Karmic Process? A small sign from the universe? I guess the way I am, I love the smaller signs better. ;) Cheerio/ Oreo! Cheers to the Process.

Log 21: Deconstruction equals Clearing

Today, once again, I changed the name, or rather modified the blog name from Karmic Purging to Karmic Clearing. Purging sounded much more violent, and daemonic. I saw a recent horror movie The Conjuring stg, Vera Farmiga and Patrick Wilson who are a married couple, professional demonologists, who help a suburban American family, plagued by a demonic witch. I found the movie excessively nightmarish, demonic. The violence of possession, chaos, and expurgation, And hence begin rethinking over the term Purging. It sounded too severe, and signifies a far more  extreme procedure. Karmic purging is but one of the extreme methods of Karmic clearing. But there are much more other, gradual process also. The overall term I had been searching for is/ was the term/ process of Karmic Clearing/ karmic resolution. Personally, I like the sound of this much more.. non violent, smoother, continuous, flowing. And instead of one major explosive expurgation, which is symbolised by serpentine Ketu, I would rather personally prefer the slow, continuous, GRADUAL process of Karmic Clearing, karmic resolutions as signified by Rahu or Saturn, my Karaka planets. That slower, gradual, process works much better with me. Hers to Karmic Clearings..

to be contd...

Log 20: Meridian Lines of becoming

Sunday morning, our friend Sukirti dropped by unannounced, out of nowhere. She was my wife's colleague in Yum, and had been our immediate neighbour. After she shifted to Gurgaon, we had completely lost touch. To my surprise, the place I had been invited for lunch was in her very same building compound. The odds of this coincidence happening, i.e, her landing up at GK II, on the same morning, when I was going to her very residential compound in Gurgaon.

Coincidences/ synchronicities often reflect underlying Karma in action. As we traveled together towards Gurgaon, we had a long, winding chat about many issues. When she was our neighbour, I had tried to teach her a lot about my approaches to astrology/ Karma, but she had her own opposing schools of thought, which had led to a lot of heated debates. But, interacting after a long gap, I realised that, we had both been right and wrong at the same time. While we chose to understand and validate our individual paths, we renounced the validity, existence of the opposing path. But  Karmic understanding makes us realize the existence, validity, and importance of the other, the opposing path. Everyone has their karma, what works for someone, depends on their own individual karma, their stars, their particular energy. And, beneath the surface layers, diametrically opposite paths often led to the very same common goals and objectives. But to have an understanding of this, we had to personally go through the first hand process of Karmic Purging! Shedding off pending karma, inflated egos, and biased viewpoints through the voluntary/ involuntary processes of karmic purging. The more you purge, more the universe fills you up with free knowledge, gyaan, evolution, and your life with coincidences and synchronicity. Amen to that!

NOTE: as opposed to my earlier experience/ effort/ process of writing/ blogging, this meridian line of  Karmic Purging, this longitudinal axis of thought, has enabled me to connect the dots. Now I seem to easily pen down my many lateral experiences, and seemingly parallel events. I feel, finding your meridian line of becoming, blossoms many strange coincidences and synchronicity. And how does one find one's meridian line of becoming. Just practice in Karmic purging.  ;)

Log 19: karmic reflections

From the earlier post, I continue the effects, feedbacks i recieve from the universe/ environment after my renaming this to Karmic Purgation. First, I get a very on the dot accurate daily forecast from astrology.com, which is usually pretty vague for me, but which has been eerily accurate for my wife for a very long time. Just see the paradox: wife of an astro guy getting an very accurate daily forecast from a mechanical auto update from a popular astrology site, but thats how it is!! My astro forecast read:
 

Hi Adim! Here is your Daily Cosmic Calendar for Saturday, February 8

Every so often the universe enjoys taking a siesta in its seeming perpetual bombardment of humanity and terra firma with challenging and discordant solar, lunar and planetary alignments. When this kind of 24-hour time-period occurs, it is wise to reflect on recent changes in your life, review the errors and mistakes of the past, and count your blessings. In addition, today's Moon sign -- Gemini -- carries more significance than usual due to the scarcity of other celestial aspects and because the lunar orb only makes a mentally-energizing, 60-degree liaison with Uranus (5:57AM). Thus, reading, writing and research are reinforced. How ironic that since yesterday I have been taking notes from Deleuzes' Anti- Oedipus in collaboration for my friend MM and later from Jean Baudrillard's  essays Transparencey of Evil, Blowback of Duality etc. And yestenight till 3 am, was taking physical notes (pen and paper) from the great work of Deconstruction: Jacques Derrida's "On Grammatology".  Later, a friend Ritika Jawa wrote to me on facebook message: "Ur blog on karmic purging is interesting. Is it not based on our planetary movements when we go through such cleansing process, I feel its like soul activates few things based on its evolution in the current cycle to rid of the karmic baggage which is stored in our bodies.". suddenly she was saying something so appropriate to Karmic Purgation. I replied:  "yes, planetary transits are mere mechanishms by undergoing which we PURGE / get rid of the karmic baggage that is stored in our bodies...thats why karmic purging is most important!!!".  Later friend Mousumi Banikya, posted a heartfelt piece on her life, in her blog: Mousumis blog piece: as-life-goes-on . I added both Ritika and Mousumi to my karmic programmLooked like there were other karmic reflections in my immediate  environment after initiating this karmic purgation blog. The high itch to change it's title to something like Karmic Plumbing, Karmic investigations, Karmic chronicles/ musings/ or something along those lines still persists. But let this stay for now. The effects of this karmic purgation have been quite fruitful. In their consequential chains of events. I was actually beginning to whine at this slow phase, but reading the astro update, and the inputs from the two friends above, i feel i am in karmic sync! have a nice weekend!

Log 18: Karmic Purging in action

I'm happy to report that after changing the blog yesternight, name/ path/ mission statement to Karmic Purging, I'm seeing some better changes in my immediate environment. Suddenly things are flowing with better chi'. Such is the vital importance of Karmic purgation/ catharsis/ cleansing in out lives. It allows fresh new energy to flow into our lives. And also, there was a huge pressure on me throughout the entire day, yesterday before I finally got it it right. But today, considerably, with all the planetary positions, etc notwithstanding, suddenly the relaxed feel is very prevalent.
Today, I was supposed to go to my ayurdevic doctor at Chandiwala estate, because past few days, my whole body was burning, eyes vision blurry, urination almost burning, a pain sensation around the kidneys. But today, on it's own I'm feeling much better and relaxed. Thanks to the practice of Karmic Purgation. Thank God, that out of the three blogs, this one: adimphukan.blogspot.in, having my very name in the blog address, is connected and dedicated to the process and reflections of Karmic Purging. Also, as I write this, I feel good, because somewhere inside, my body feels that this was what i am/ is/ should supposed to talk, communicate, write about! I am feeling drowsy, and do you know what I connect drowsiness with (from karmic standpoint): this panel below...

That image is from my childhood comic book Kamandi, the Last Boy on Earth, issue no. 55. I had to do a lot of  surfing to get that image. That was the first time I learnt the term "Drowsy" at 6- 7 years. An image grafted onto my mind since childhood, but retroactively, I relate this image approximately  to the Karmic Purgation technique. People talk about power, electricity, shakti, like in case of the. But purged off the positive ions, oxidized electricity, extra buzz, we feel more relaxed, chilled out. The Vortex Beast on the left hand side panel is flaming full on, with electrical  storm energy. But on the right hand side panel, purged off it's energy, it feels relaxed.( Or thats how I feel it should have been.) Generally, excess positive energy, in forms of gemstones, power Yantras, etc, give people more power, energy, excitement, high. But they can make you a mutated and grotesque Vortex beast. But through Karmic Purging, removing all that buzz/ high/ electricity/ shakti/ build up/ high can make you feel quite peaceful and drowsy. Like the Vortex beast chilling on the left...
Amen to Karmic purging!

Log 17: Returning to Karmic Purging

Like I had predicted, merely three posts back, the changing of name and objective of this blog and posts have consequently unleashed a backlash of undesirable effects and consequences upon my life, and immediate environment. Something, that I could have done without, in my long and winding journey of karmic unraveling. Luckily, because of the process of blogging, these embarrassing posts, in evidence of post modern aspirations would sink downwards, hopefully into relative oblivion, after some passage of time. Maybe I'm predestined to spew out karmic musings on these posts. Endlessly and forever! This blog might be form of Karmic catharsis, where the blog process is NOT progressive, but subtractive, reductive, cathartic in some form. Since, Sun- Mercury conjunction is in my 12th house of loss, so writing has to be some sort of subtraction, as in deconstruction.

Purging Karmic Issues= making room for Evolution/ Growth
During the past few days, (check my past few logs), was while transforming this blog completely into a post modern, deconstructive narrative, called Retroactive Blogs was to invite quite a horrific backlash from the Karmic, nightmarish  aspect of it. Divesting this blog of the supernatural, karmic, daeomnic components not only negates the interesting deconstructive, rhizomatic aspects BUT also immediately accelerates such demonic, nightmarish experiences in my own daily life. Immediately negating ALL intellectual breathing space for venturing into Deconstruction, rhizome, and post modern Retroactive perspectives. For me, to move away, to maintain polite Objective, scientific distance from the Karmic visceral standpoint, is to invite the utmost backlash, and wrath of these very Nightmarish Karmic forces. WHEREAS, delving deeply into the nightmarish, karmic, visceral aspect of things often yields some great Deconstructive pearls. WHEREAS, delving deeply, and directly into the nightmarish, karmic aspect of things spawns strange rhizomes of Deconstruction, in their own unpredictable, random style, back into my life.

Log 16: Definitely Maybe

I should have known earlier, that this blog renaming to "Retroactive Logs' would compulsorily, and necessarily counteract itself. BECAUSE that's what Retroactive motion does. Contradict, reverse, even itself. That's why I end changing blog names, statements of purpose, goals, mission statements 1000 times, etc. Since I began this Retroactive Logs, lots of things have begun haphazard in my life. Lots of clear cut boundaries around me, dissolving askew. AND because I changed this blog from a Karmic, Occult, astrological phenomenon to this relatively "Post Modern" terminology, in Retroaction, lots of things have reversed, inversed for me. Suddenly, astrological stuff, mantras, hymns, worship of planets have made a forceful return into my life. With a vengeance, indeed. I feel, blogging on Retroaction, has made my stars retrograde massively. But, dear faithful reader, especially my friend MM, with whom I collaborated, or rather who urged me to initiate this tangent of Retroaction, i shall continue in/ on the contradiction of this Retroactive path/ journey.

From the retroactive, deconstructive perspective, one compulsorily essential phenomenon of writing is that it is self defeating. More so, because I have Sun, Mercury in Virgo, my 12th house. See, I told you that, trying to be too post modern, would retroactively, bring forth the perspectives, heavily into astrological readings! So, now, knowing that the blogging process, is self negating, counteractive, contradictory, I still must then, take this into account and continue/ persevere to write! without having any topic, event, objective to write about, but merely the Retroactive phenomenon, for/ in/ by itself! I know for the fact, that readership of such a process, would be close to zero! As, who could understand, be interested, in retroactive fundas/ ponderings for/ in/ by itself. I should have created a porn blog, or erotic stories, that would have really rocked!! But then, there's so much of it around, about! And because of the freedom of the internet, it has moved onto another level! AND, another thing, am I technologically spoiled? Am I merely blogging, BECAUSE the facility, avenue, medium of blogging exists, and NOT because I have something profound and important to say? Is this the flip side of freedom? Do I have too much spare time on my hands? Am I definitely wasting my time on such stupid self pondering, examinations and analyses? Was this Retroactive initiative, too much than I asked for??

Maybe, I Defintely think so... Hear this song on youtube:  Definitely Maybe- Jeff Beck

Another bizarre thing! Jeff Beck's wailing guitar work of song Defintely Maybe by , on retroactive hindsight, directly reflects the qualities of my other two blogs: Serpentine AND Saturnine. TALK about contradictions/ retroactions..!!

Log 15: Retroactive process of blogging

One majorly relieving thing about blogging under the Retroactive banner is that one can, rather I can,  blog about movements, flows, processes. As opposed to previously blogging about "things", incidents, "happenings", events. Under the banner of the retroactive which is also synonymous with reflection/ retrospection, I can simply turn back on myself, fall inwards and spontaneously begin blogging. I don't need a thing/ topic, I need what Deleuze calls Hecceities, movements, flows, magnitudes of motion. And the effortless ease with which words themselves type themselves out on the  keyboard, is a natural side effect of  the retroactive process. On the 2nd last post "Log 13: Negation of Negation" the retroactive process had already begun, but I had simply not woken up to comprehend/ realise that. The manner in which I was effortlessly oozing thoughts out, was by product of the Retroactive process, but it's only now, on retroactive hindsight, that I begin to comprehend it. I had merely labelled it wrongly as "Negation of Negation" because of the necessary initial mis-recognition that the retroactive process compulsorily involves.

Today, I was re-updating the Page header "Retroactive Intro". I had written about the retroactive journey of my blogging process. But one major contradictory and retroactive element of blogging, which I'm being able to re-alise now, on retroactive hindsight, is that, blogging has been always been for me, much more than an outlet for voicing my  personal expression. in fact, it has been a cathartic, relieving,  mechanism for venting out my excess thoughts, oozing out my excess brain activity. And in a retroactive manner, it's been a medium for reading aloud my own excess thoughts. And furthermore, retroactively, blogging/ writing is a kind of feedback mechanism, which helps me to divorce myself from my excess thoughts. Voila!! I have been always (whenever I have not been trying to project on others with my "great knowledge", cerebral acumen), blogging for my own self. Blogging as a reflective mechanism, a retroactive process, for working my inner angst out. And in the process, making me somewhat lighter! Cheerio'/ Oreo to the Retroactive! Have a great weekend!

Log 14: Retro: nostaligias of the future

31st Jan, 2014, 11:56 pm, the midnight hour, witchin' hour. Two and a half hours left for Venus to end it's past 40 days of retrograde motion, and become directional at 2:30 am. How utterly embarrassing that, NOT one day has passed before the last post: "Log 13: Negation of Negation begins" and in the very next post, today it ends, with the ever accompanied blog name change, etc, etc. As I change this blog to it's latest avatar "Retroactive Logs". As I write this post, i am feeling an overly strog sense of Deja Vu, a clear image projected before me, where I'm changing the blog name once again! Such is the necessary repetition, return, recurrence, and self- contradiction of the retroactive journey, the retroactive process.

It is such a fantastic ( and necessary) paradox, that I who have such a repressed/ suppressed, obsessive, and subconscious, almost carnal fetish for the linear, directional, forward and structural, am writing this blog on retroactive motion. But such itself is the necessary paradox contradiction of the retroactive phenomenon, that, somewhere a champion and authority of Retroactive phenomenon, is churning out vast outputs and analysis on structuralism, linearity, and continuity.
And here, today as I "commence'" or maybe, I have forgotten in my long blogging journey, maybe I have recommenced or have returned to the retroactive topic. I symbolically, obsessively, return, regress to my favourite obsessive Michael Jackson tracks, of/ from last two year past: Break of Dawn and Butterflies. Round and roundabout i go, returning to former histories, disguised as the future.

Today, I HAVE to mention the significance of this posts title 'nostalgia of the future". In 1999, when I was overstaying illegally in Film school campus, i was dating a student of camera. Those days, I was outstandingly arrogant of my newfound intellectual, cerebral recognitions across the film students as a serious thinker. The girl i was dating, was on the other, grounded, emotional, and though quite weird, very real, a flesh and blood woman. Those days i had a penchant for the airy, fairy, alluring, ice maidens  (poor masochistic sucker that I was). One day while we were smoking on the evening time, by the cool summer grass of a sultry evening, she discussed with me, a song idea for an upcoming camera exercise. she wanted me to compose music based on her idea: "nostalgia of the future". I asked her what it meant. she said 'one day, in the future, your'e gonna look back, and miss this moment. Getting all nostalgic about it. and i want you to realise that in your music". I laughed at her, told her she should stick to her camera techniques, and leave higher thought to people like us. The song was never composed, the song video never made. today, i want this post to be a tribute to my future nostalgia, when i would look back at my current prick-liness, my current stupidity. i cannot comprehend it now,obviously, but through this 'nostalgia of the future', this retroactive movement, hope  I have some futuristic retrospection of my current time. And become 5 percent better than what i am.. today, when my wife, immobilized by her corn for the past 4 months, dances above her waist, to the flesh and blood music of Carmen McRae, I'm trying to retroactively, look back nostalgically through time, and appreciate the flesh and blood women she is. Even, i remain cereberal, cold, distant and analytical..

Cheers to the Retroactive. camera woman from the past, who saw through time into the future! Cheers to the Nostalgia Of The Future..

Log 13: Negation of Negation begins

29th Jan, 2014, Wednesday, 5:04 pm. I feel queasy, uneasy, disoriented, and outside all comfort zones, after re-christening this name of blog to "Negation of Negation", because suddenly I'm outside of the defined structures of a particular, topical category. Like astrology, Karma, spirituality, art, whatever! NOW, I've no choice but to write about life itself under the great banner of Hegelian negation of Negation, the triadic, threefold dialectical movement of life. Now, this blog would fall in the category of ... er.. blogging! Blogging for the sake of  blogging. Unchained from the categorical restraint of fixed topics, like my other two blogs Serpentine and Saturnine, this third, blog, is about.. blogging itself! Hey, the paradoxical, contradictory phenomenon of Hegelian/ Zizekian Negation of Negation is already happening, here!! haha! Even, in my almost 20 years, albeit uninterrupted long practice of journal writing, I had a topic to write about: the DAILY events of life. What happened from morning to night under a particular date. After a while, it obviously bogged me down. The painstaking responsibility of it!! As I begin Negation on Negation, however, I don't know, WHAT I'm writing about. Where, this haphazard,  rhizomatic random narrations would take me. For the first time, blogging has become better than even jotting down thoughts on paper. Don't have to think, write, format, edit. Just random hammering on the keyboard, and watch the words spell out. Since yesterday, dietary imbalance is giving me great headaches. I had a long leftover fish fry, which was freezing in the deep freeze, microwaved and had with.. tea of all things. Hope I don't get food poisoning, or digestive breakdown, which is a common occurrence with me. I feel some release happening, because of random thoughts spurting out and imprinting themselves on the white space of the monitor.. on their own. A kind of reflexive, retroactive motion. But one, which came after a long period of extremely volumnious and formal writing parctice. in fact, i just can discontinue this page, and continue later, simply changing the para, and simply underling the time of entry! whhopsa daisy! So, this is what blogging feels like.. ( I began "bloggin" in Jun, 2007)..